Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Shout Out!

I think my response to all the comment deserve a special entry

Hafizah: hehehe, i'm still waiting for the drugs..would it be easier with the gas in ur hand? ah yes, i love all my baju raya's...and for the marathon round the hospital, i'll pass:p

Z: hehe, those're the easiest bit from the list...haven't got the chance to oggle on the cuties though...

Farina: dugong session post-reunion sounds like a plan...yeay yeay!!

Ambol: oiits, aku nak bunk in ur room on that night lah kalu camtuh.


1. Open house at Tmn Uda Murni on 10.10.09. Any idea for theme and menu?

2.I'll be in KL on 15th Oct to meet up with Peah..havent decide either to proceed with family excursion to Pangkor or just stay in town till end of the weekend..if i do, need a movie partner cos no shopping for me this time!

Saturday, September 19, 2009


Salam Aidilfitri to all readers..
Setulus ikhlas memohon maaf atas segala salah dan silap atau terkasar bahasa
Terima kasih atas segalanya..
Azam baru?
Ingin menjadi org yang paling sabar dan sentiasa memaafkan.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Incoherent Part III

I've lost more than 3kg since Day 1 of puasa.

Everytime i promised myself to reply the MonashClan group email, i never did. One or two has been asking my whereabout rhetorically.They actually played a major role for my happy doses back in those days. I never missed reading the snailmail but when it's time to update about myself, i dont know where to start.Perhaps the experience of being a chronic houseman that demand me to act a litle less than junior MO itself with the same old pay will do. should i also mention the perks of doing less calls due to the policy? It's not influx, genius. It's retention.


I'm afraid to see Ramadhan comes to the end. All this while, i have been using it as the main strength to fight and the best tool to fill in the silence. Funny how i share the same sentiment with a few others.It's nothing new to realise how Ramadhan has always been a trial period for me, but at the same time i also appreciate my renewed bonding with my Creator. I was told that it's all in the mind and i can always be strong despite any named month.


It's not that i am not excited to enjoy the full house and wear my 4 pieces of baju raya matched with 3 pairs of kasut raya completed by the new handbag.Yes,i still have my childhood spirit when it comes to that.


Let's do some wild experiment. Here's my brain on the dissecting table. Doesnt it looked a little bit crowded to you? Here's the scapel.Now i want you to remove the big chunk of what's labeled as memory so that i can have more space for the future wishes junky.


Picnic at waterfall sounds like a plan now. The last time we had it was a few years back during my summer break. There's some jingling feeling associated with what we called as dugong session...Dont worry, there's no way we would call ourselves duyong for some eye-rolling expression..hehehe


Miss Mehran gave me a list of Feel-Good-Moment hence my daily status in FB. Speaking of FB, i still cannot understand why stranger would make an effort to add me up in his/her list. It's not that ur interested to be my fren anyway. Ok, i am biased cos i would absent-mindedly approve any request from female and leave her at peace but as for the other species, i make sure i checked out the profile to confirm he's alien to me and rejected the request. Ok, back to the list. Some are as easy as wearing new clothes/shoes/bag but top in the list is indeed

'lari keliling hospital'.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Incoherent Part II

I imagine myself in KL. Clad in my casual attire, enjoying breakfast at mamak...driving myself to the shopping mall...lost myself in the crowd....and feel good.

I imagine myself having gala time with my fellow girls at the waterfall..Farina, will the day after reunion be a good timing for our dugong session? unless if i go earlier in October..

When "bad" things happen to "good" people, it's often because they want to become even better teachers, guides, and helpers to those precious souls who will one day need them to be their rock.
Plus, today's bad is always tomorrow's boon, no matter who you are, no matter what has happened, and no matter how weak the coffee was.


I have been having mixed conversation in my head lately. It's like two different personality is trying to tell me what should i say and think. That's why you would see me in two different mood in a split second. I tried to let the fairy personality take charge of me but sometimes the evil one managed to abduct my mind.

I hope it's not a losing battle.

It doesn't matter that the road's been rough, that you now have challenges, or that uncertainties loom on the horizon.

None of these change the fact that for every thought you think today, worlds will come tumbling into existence. For every word you speak, legions will be called into action. And for every step you take, matter will be drawn from the ether.
After almost 6 months has passed, i realise that i am now at peace with the past. Whatever being 'shouted' to my face no longer bother me. I'm glad i have outgrown that childish episode in my life. I also see no harm for a new start but i dont think it will ever happen, anyway. So, i'll just leave it at that but with a better tone.

That's what forgive and forget really means, isnt it?

Living the life of your dreams is a lot like sailing.

You pick your destination, hoist up your sail, make minor adjustments while the journey is underway, and let the wind do all the hard work.

In other words, imagine the end result, do what little you can, make minor adjustments while the journey is underway, and let me blow your mind.


Monday, September 7, 2009


I find myself writing a lot less in here.

Maybe i find it much easier to keep everything inside than go all expressive in public.

Maybe i'm afraid i would sound emotional when i want people to see me strong and calm.

Maybe i believe that the less i say it out, the less painful it will be...

I find i a lot easier to have conversation in my head or share it with God.


To fill in my absence, i'd like to usher u girls to my sister's blog .I find myself giggling a lot while reading her musing, perhaps because i could actually relate to most of the situation. I know she hates the fact that people often mistaken her as my elder sister but she sometines does act like one... but most of the time, she'll be the one who takes up my order and endure my nag.

Yes, i am the evil between the three.


This conversation took place shortly after the father met my partner-in-crime and i at our friend's house. His son is our gay partner in the clan, which simply means incest if we end up marrying each other...

Father: patutla abang takde risau pun pasal nak kahwin...tak rasa nak kahwin.

Son: kenapa?

Father: dok berkawan dengan diorang tuh...perangai macam budak-budak...yang dua orang tuh tak boleh berenti bercakap ke?


oh my god...


I dont think we're that childish *denial denial*

ahh, speaking of denial..i actually have a patient back in paediatric ward who was named as


goodness gracious.lol


After another round of cleaning the wardrobe, i made the usual pact not to do any clothes' shopping and the dateline this time would be until i finish my internship which will be later in April.

Shortly after the vow, i paid my first visit to the newly opened Parkson and regretted myself to death.

Err, can i take back my words??

*pussy-cat eyes*


As i have to take my mind off retail therapy, i need an excursion. Sabah is now off the list because i missed the best deal already.

I dont think Kl will be a wise decision because experience tells everything. Besides, nobody should see me doing helicopter stunt in the middle of the shopping mall as i try to control myself from splurging money.

I would love to go to an island but my partner in crime cannot be nowhere near the sea.

I'm having Lumut, Bukit Merah or Janda Baik for my family's excursion next month... Any better option?


I'll try to stick to one particular topic when i type next time..