Thursday, May 28, 2009


1.One day i received a call asking when i'm going to empty the quarters. Apparently they've decided to shorten the stay of houseman from 2 years to a year only in that apartment. oh great! *rolled eyes*

So the house hunting began. It's been 6 years since i did it with my girls back in Melbourne and lack of virtual information didnt help the process itself.

Hugs to my mum, we managed to find a decent semi-D house with 4 bedroom. I love the neighbourhood with an easy access to almost everywhere. This time i decided to go easy on furniture hunting and settled down with a simple yet spacious master bedroom. I need to find a good quality of matress and a practical study table then i'll be done.

Psttt, there's a tiny chance that i'll start back cooking. shall we wait and see?

2. Day in and day out in paeds ward practially left us in exhaustion and a short break would be nice. Then came the idea of going for picnic this saturday. Unfortunately, Brahim have to leave for KL that makes us incomplete. Fret not, we extended the invitation to other colleagues and so far the response were just great. I'm so gonna bring my favourite picnic hat and book to enjoy the day. I so cant waittt!

3. I've booked a flight from 4th to 7th june to be in KL. The main reasons were to attend my beloved angel, haniizhar's wedding and to meet my Yusuf Rayyan for the first time. But here's things to consider

- Hani's wedding will be in Seremban and takes place on saturday then the hotel reception on sunday. i wish i could attend both as it's been 6 years since i last saw her. Attending her house's ceremony means better chance to meet her up close and chatted for a while but i also wish to attend the other reception...if i want to do so, i need to find lodging cos there's no way i am making twice trip to seremban. my SIL will definitely not be happy,hehhe... my initial plan was to book a hotel with Zila and enjoy a quick break just the two of us..but i have to find alternative just in case.

If i have to choose between the two wedding, which one should i go? i have a feel that home reception would be a better chance for a long lost fren...

If only he's coming back to KL/Seremban also, things would be easier....

- I wish to go to IKEA for some cute things...

4. Anis, the name is not Ali. lol! insya Allah when the right time comes, i'll share the story with all of u girls for now, there're two jebons reading this space that will throw a fit if i go into details about our progress....

Tomorrow, i'm going for a brisk walk at the park..

Sunday, May 24, 2009


Sorry girls,

i need some time to update on

-my new (rented) house

-picnic plan this coming saturday

-going to kl from 4th to 7th june for hani-izhar's wedding and some family time

-life in ward 4 of paediatric unit

that's all i guess..

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Don't ask me question..

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
bila si lurus bertemu si loyar buruk...

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
1. Thoughtful in subtle way..
2. Isk, his cheekiness drives me confused *rolled eyes*
3. Family-man
4. Good command in English with great knowledge about almost everything
5. Comfort to the eyes..

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you?
when he sing to me one of Anuar Zain's

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you?

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..
thank Allah for the greatest gift

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will..
smile and walk away

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on
his cheekiness...*rolled eyes*

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...
cheating on me

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
a person worth to keep at heart..

ok, dont worry. i still keep the option open..hahahaha

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Feeling blessed...

When HE took away a person, little did i know that HE actually wants to replace with a better one....

Choose to keep things low.

Pls pray for what's best..

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku minta petunjuk yang baik dari-Mu dengan ilmu-Mu, aku minta kekuatan dari-Mu dengan kekuatan-Mu. Aku meminta dari-Mu dari kelebihan-Mu yang banyak, maka sesungguhnya Engkau berkuasa, aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau mengetahui dan Engkaulah yang paling mengetahui perkara-perkara ghaib.

Ya Allah, jika Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini baik untukku pada agamaku, duniaku dan kesudahan urusanku buat masa kini dan masa akan datang, maka tentukannya untukku dan permudahkannya kepadaku. Jika Kamu mengetahui bahawa perkara ini tidak baik untukku pada agamaku dan duniaku dan kesudahan urusanku buat masa kini dan masa akan datang maka elakkanya dariku dan elakkan diriku daripadanya, tentukan kebaikan untukku di mana sahaja aku berada sesungguhnya Engkau berkuasa di atas segala sesuatu.


Sunday, May 10, 2009

Chin Up and Stride Forward

I once replied to my dearest Monash's sister

"Big hugs for u. I knew bout the UM offer so congrats! Mmg in our job selalu kena marah, rasa unappreciated tp keep in mind that we work kerana Allah and not for others. That way rasa much comforted. We've always try out best..'

She texted me the usual dilemma and infamous challenge faced by junior doctor, particularly in this system-the humiliation, the dejection, the frustration and what's not. This issue were dealt differently by us; some choose to whine and others keep it rotting inside.

If you're saying i'm being idealist; well, sorry but that's how i choose to face it, or rather embrace the situation. It's too late to regret our choice to pursue this profession and if i may humbly remind that we're actually given the opportunity by Allah to do the most noble job of all. If that's not enough, this job actually brings us closer and closer to our Creator.

How many times we recite Bismillah or Selawat before poking the patient's vein or doing resuscitation?

This journey was never an easy one for me either. Some may have seen my tears streaming down while doing ward job and at nights, some read my thought of writing a resignation letter in the previous space. The only survival kit i have were solat hajat each time before on call because i was so scared i might faced difficult nights and finding little happiness every day. Successful venepuncture on difficult vein could easily be the source of satisfaction during that period.

Slowly i learned and found new joy and enthusiasm in this job.

Being average, my daily aim is to be able to perform my best and come home with no regrets. I know i may not be able to remember everything under the sun and master all the skills but as long as i tried, i will leave the hospital with a smile.

'Worry is like a working chair, it will give your work but will not bring anywhere' - SSP's t shirt.

Be grateful that we have HIM to submit ourselves at the end of the day. Be grateful that we have HIM to turn to when everyone else could only give us sympathy look. Be grateful that we only HIS evaluation matters and not others. Be very grateful that we have HIM in our life.

Hugs to all the survivors!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Dua Pertemuan...

1.One of our days in Mecca, my mum asked whether i'd like to tag along to her friend's acquaintance so i simply said yes despite my common cold. I almost regretted the decision due to the long waiting under the blazing sun until i met the person himself at his house.

Being (Malay) Malaysian millionaire over there, he inspired us in so many ways but most of all

-The key to control the disease is by having no anger and always take things easy. As simple as stress makes your sugar level go haywire, not to mention the blood pressure to shoot up. Keep calm and have no worries.

-When we see other people's fortune, recite Masya Allah and when it comes to our turn, say Alhamdulillah.

-If other (rich) people climb up the mountain in a day, we will climb up the mountain in a month.. We will eventually reach there, it's just a matter of time.

For some, it may be a known facts but let's see how much practise we actually put in it?

2. I've always known that i have relatives who resided in Mecca for a very long time so when it's time to pay them a visit with my family, comes the mixed feeling. anxious-cum-excited. I was worried that it will be a deafening meeting as nobody will understand each other's language and i wonder so many things about them.

I thought wrong. They were all well-versed in Kelantanese, not to mention Arabic despite only paying short visit to Malaysia every now and then. They were warm and welcoming, making me felt like home ( I even took a nap on the bed....ops!). They wore kebaya under their jubah and not much different from us. It was a great experience to know that i have family over there and could not wait to meet them again in the next ziarah.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Two Holy Mosques

1. Talbiah tetamu Allah

HambaMu telah datang menyambut panggilanMu, Ya Tuhan, hambaMu datang menyambut panggilanMu. Sesungguhnya segala puji-pujian dan nikmat dan kerajaan adalah kepunyaanMu dan tidak ada sekutu bagiMu.

2. Alhamdulillah

Pengalaman pertama menjadi tetamu Allah di Tanah Haram sangat bermakna dan indah. For me to write the experience and feelings over there would be difficult, almost private.

3. Doa perpisahan

Selamat tinggal wahai Rasulullah. Berpisahlah kita wahai Nabi Allah. Amanlah dikau wahai kekasih Allah. Semoga Allah tidak menjadikan pertemuan kita ini sebagai hari terakhir denganmu untuk menziarahimu ataupun berada di sisimu. Kecuali Allah mengurniakan kebajikan sihat dan afiat serta selamat jika umur panjang, insya Allah aku akan datang menziarahimu semula. Tapi jika aku mati dulu, maka aku tinggalkan di sampingmu ikrar sumpah setiaku dari hari ini hinggalah ke hari kiamat, iaitu pengakuanku yang bersungguh sungguh, ,bahawa tiada Tuhan lain yang disembah dengan sebenar benarnya kecuali Allah Tuhan yang Maha Esa, tidak ada sekutu bagiNya dan aku bersaksi dengan sesungguhnya bahawa Nabi Muhammad adalah hamba dan pesuruhNya. Maha Suci Tuhanmu, Tuhan yang mempunyai kemuliaan dari segala yang mereka sifatkan. Salam sejahtera ke atas para Rasul. Segala puji untuk Allah, Tuhan yang mentadbirkan seluruh alam ini.