As i wish...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

My long wish list and dream....

1. A total make over of myself. I've started literally by creating a new comfy niche for myself, virtually (which is here) and in reality (that is the studio). i enjoy the half-body-length mirror, i still dig the love pattern of this background and look forward to more. next i shall proceed to my wardrobe which most likely to take place next weekend (mehrannnnn, i cant wait!). yes, i'd clear up some of my old stuff (mostly shoes and bags) to make way for the new blings ;p i did happened to suffer from shopaholic block (as in coming back from the shopping mall empty-handed;p) on rare occasion but i hope it wont happen this time...i'm planning to get statement t-shirts and pattern scarf to add colours to my wardrobe. more working attire wont hurt too;)

But the most meaningful experience would be a make over of inner self. I started it the day i learnt the heart-breaking truth. i treasured composure more than ever. if there's one thing i do more nowadays; it'd be the smile. i did that when ppl told me how mad they were with the slanders; after being scolded corrected by the senior doctors, while struggling with endless admission in the middle of the night and even to the decent flirt given by a colleague. it gives me a peace of mind, if not calms me down. either that or i keep in silent. the latter happened when i'm upset or feeling rather low, which i rarely let myself dwell for long now. i choose not to talk about the recent happening because i do not want to attract more of that, not because i wanna ignore ur concern and kind attention.

i wish for a pure heart full of love and gratitude, keen to give and believe in the best from Allah.

2.i love the thought of going for a holiday by the end of next month. i have two choices really, that is to be in Jakarta with my darling friend or simply wait for my aunt to plan a trip to Bandung. Either way, i'm excited. Travel and shopping ( also, food-tasting experience) is fanta-bulous!

3.i aim to weigh 50kg or less (pls, my mum shall not know about this or else she'll freak out..kekeke) cos it makes me feel good and desirable.

ROTFL.

No lah. i guess i just love feeling slim and able to fit into most of the clothes. that's all. nothing aneroxic, nothing vanity. self-esteem, more like. having food as one of my favourite's, HERBALIFE is the best discovery i've ever made.eheh!

4.i dream of being a specialist before reaching 37. which specialty? i havent put my hand on a specific route yet. i promised myself that during my journey towards being one, i'd be one reliable houseman to the departments, approachable and helpful medical officer to the newbies and a source of comfort to the patients.

5. i am praying for an umrah next year. i believe i can make time for that and will treasure the closeness with my Creator. u know, the nothing else matters' kind of feeling. i'd like to experience that for once.

6. i hope, i wish and i pray to meet the guy and settle down by next year. far-fetched? setiap kata-kata itu kan doa? erm, i have nothing more to say on this matter.

7.i'd loveeeee to be a good dancer. i feel that it's the most fun exercise to get a sexy fit body and good way of de-stress too ....ideally, there'll be one private studio where i'll meet up with my girlfriends and dance to the beat whenever we feel like it. the instructor? i'll let my friends drool on him decide;p

8. i wanna earn big money. for a simpler reason so that i can shop more but more humbly because i wanna share the wealth with those matters to me and contribute to the needy ones... now, that sounds better isnt it? =D

9. i wanna go back toshopping in Melb, that explains why i haven't converted the AUD1200...now, where's my darling KAMI's?

10. i'd be delighted for endless HERBALIFE order. ngeeeeeee!

Aminnn....

Aminnn...

AMMINNNNNNNN...