BEST IN LIFE

Nikmat sepertiga malam..

2012-01-25T06:22:00.000-08:00

I sort of abandon this blog for the longest time ever, my bad...

It's already 2012. The last 3 months last year wasn't something i would like to keep in my memory. It was too painful, the darkest point of my life so far. My only strength during those time was faith in Allah and parents. I had come to the state where i could plan my future with the possible new situation.

But at the end of the day, patience paid off. Allah gave me this test but HE also lead my way out of it. It's almost miracle when things unveiled itself, one after another. When i look back, how close i am to lose something i hold on dearly, but its Allah's will that not only i got it back but also in much much better way.

ALHAMDULILLAH.

If there's one thing i would keep in mind is whatever that happen in our life, nothing is out of Allah's knowledge. pray to HIM, ask from HIM for what's best for us. We'll be suprised of how gracious and forgiving Allah is. The best time to ask from HIM is 'sepertiga malam yang akhir' so if we really really wish for something, sacrifice half an hour before subuh to submit ourselves to ALLAH for solat tahajud, solat taubat and solat hajat. Insya Allah, He will ease everything for us as HE is the BEST KNOW-ER and MOST MERCIFUL. I actually learnt about this from Prof Haji Kamil (author of Travelog Haji) when i chanced upon him in Muqaddimah slot on tv9 during my emergency leave.

So , stay strong.. lovely people!

Top 3!

2011-08-17T23:40:00.000-07:00

I dragged this post for more than a week now..whenever i made a mental note to come up with new entry, i ended up dozing/surfing net/watching TV or doing housewife's work...

So this is it. I'm not going anywhere until i click 'PUBLISH POST'

Put my life update aside, i wanted to share this first. It's my top pick for fren's blog update since my hiatus (hahah, dah lama x guna perkataan hiatus..dulu2 kalu jiwa kacau sket je konon nak hiatus from blog, tup tup esok tuh dah ada new entry...pbbhht!)

So instead of updating my blog for the past few months, i went blog-hopping and had good hearty laugh reading this post

KISAH HANIN DAN KUCING
Hanin oh Hanin...penuh ekspresi diri..!

KISAH FARINA DAH KHAIRUL FAHMI (ehehe, tajuk meletopss!)
Memang terbaekkkk!

but nothing can beat this...

*drumroll*

KISAH FATMA DAN K-POP

I had my OMG moments reading this...literally ROTFL, ok! just to calm myself a bit, i had to text Fatma to thanks her for this entry of the day..i just couldnt figure out what's in their mind, seriously...and to quote Fatma

'You can't dressed Ali, Ahmad or Supardi with tight leather pants and vest, tunjuk-tunjuk dada macam tu, and call them K-Pop artist and expect that we didn't know any different and will fall for you and call you, "Oppa! Oppa!". Ugh. Geli akak.'

I'm not a fan of K-pop (as in the real group in Korea) but still cringe upon reading this...so i cant imagine what Umie@Jebon would feel..LOL

Ok, dah siap. Nak solat zuhur plak..

OPPSY DAISY!

2011-08-04T19:27:00.000-07:00

Whoppsss, i have neglected this space more than intended..too occupied with so many things, i still have June magazines un-read! huhuh

Will try to come up with more rants and updates later..as for now, selamat menghayati bulan Ramadhan..top up our usual ibadah of berpuasa with tadarus Al-Quran, solat tahajud and sedekah;)

And no, that is not my transformed husband;)

Mere mehboobaaa...

2011-05-19T18:11:00.000-07:00

Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge goes a long way in Hamzah's clan, pioneered by our very own Cikyah. If i'm not mistaken, she travelled from Ipoh to Kl thrice just to watch this movie in cinema.

During school holiday, she brought back the VCD and premiered it for the first time in our house. Mind you, back then we didnt have VCD player and had to borrow someone else's (can't remember whose..) and to make it more interesting, there wasnt any subtitle either.. so, imagine us watching the telly while at the same time listening to my aunt's narration..LOL!

i was just 13 years old (kot!?) back then but Cikyah's passion towards this love story transpired.. we(girl' siblings) instantly went uhhhhhh-ed for the hero..SRK was the newbie in the industry and look at his style in this film, all innocent and charming! The next thing we know,during school holiday we would go to Cikyah's house in Ipoh and enjoyed movie marathon. I remembered vividly our experience watching Dil To Pagal Hai in the cinema and went home all smiling, dreaming of our own Rahul. In the car during road trip, we'll sing along to Hindi songs with our Late Ayah Lah..

1998- I'm sure my SSPian girls remembered the year where it all started. Shah Rukh Khan's mania in Malaysia and us got no exception. People were talking about Kuch Kuch Hota Hei everywhere and our very own Headgirl was the first in batch to watch it during her outing..Were were having our Sunday's night prep and instead of finishing homework, we crowded around Fatma's desk and listened to her ~~bragging~~. hehehe!

My friend and i decided to follow her leadership- we must go and watch the movie ourselves..! we chose Sunway Pyramid for that matter and there were 6 of us -Myself, Liyana, Peon, Kak Ani, Jasmine and another girl whom i couldnt recall.. We were all excited and giggling before going in ..I remembered passing tissue to one of them during the show ,LOL!! (guess who?!)

Following that, saturday afternoon become our favourite time.. we had our self-created group who would pass the words around and by 2pm, gathered in Bilik Rekreasi Blok A &B for some gala time... I was actually an outcast because my dormitory was in Blok C but what's the joy of watching Hindi movie alone there, isnt it??! Those were one of the best moment in high school memories. We would find our fave spot and went uhhh-ahhhh whenever the hero came out to rescue the heroin...

There's one time when Miss Shal got all confused with the noise and quickly flipped through her telly-only to be more confused when she couldnt see any logistic reason for our abnormal behaviour downstairs..LOL!

Remember when some of us got called up by Cik Aisah, headwarden during prep hour for some 'Namaste' talk??..gosh, rumours had it that on top of all craze, someone actually had the nerve do some paper-cutting from the newspaper in her room to add up to Salman Khan's collection.

Huh, aku suspek budak PA system yg buat..hahaha!

As a punishment, i was reprimanded from going to Bilik Rek A & B..kahkahkah! It's not as if they can stop us from continuing our girls' session. Did i tried to sneaked into the room again for our weekly dose of Hindi's? i cant remember now..

Headgirl and i also shared tiny secret related to this..Fatma, dumping ground depan rumah besar..does it ring a bell to you?

Actually this entry was especially dedicated to Farina . Now you go have fun with your saree tomrrow and make us all jealous in homeland! pffttttt:p

Short stint

2011-05-11T08:03:00.000-07:00

June last year.

Instead of staying and wasting my time, I took a de-tour. I applied to go to district hospital. I got a chance to talk to a certain specialist from another hospital, it’s going to be a good experience before pursuing into my special interest. From the beginning of housemanship, I’ve been feed with lotsa stories about district hospital and what’s like so of course, I was all nerve. Instead of ducking off, I choose to have a taste myself.

Again I had to fight to go to HTM instead of HKK (knowing fully well that I’ll be the scapegoat if I agreed for the latter.)

I was in charge of medical and during oncall, it’s going to be either casualty or medical/paeds. So that’s good enough for a start. Things got a lot better when I teamed up with this particular committed MO and guided by another committed specialist. Shared workload and continuous teaching made it all easier.

It’s true when people said that you can easily scrutinize peripheral’s management unless you had working experience there. Dealing with incompetent staffs (but I have to admit some are actually really good and keen) during critical time, making sure that everything’s under control while waiting for (up to 4 hours!) transport, made do with whatever facilities/medication you had at that moment and putting up with your colleagues from tertiary centre.

Suprisingly, I couldn’t recall any moment that I have regret about my decision. Even when I was struggling in the casualty during late hours or staying past 4pm on Thursday because the specialist wanted to do a quick round in the ward, I have no grumble. I wouldn’t say I was all excellent and competent (failed twice in intubation during the early days,heh!) but I made sure I learnt. I didn’t hesitate to call for help but I tried to improve along the way.

I had a taste of dengue death too. It happened so quick and you’d wish two large bore branula would appear magically by the time you arrived. Think of mortality audit as just another learning process, or else you’ll have sleepless night beforehand.

Patience would also be tested by relatives. One eventful oncall saw me facing denial son-in-law who accused me of making wrong decision by putting a tube into his father-in-law’s nose (which I’m sure he meant the ETT into the mouth and not Ryle’s tube) and gotten him worse, when the poor chap was actually gasping and ABG showed PCO2 has climbed up to 85%. I was just glad I had my mask on. I could’ve snapped back, instead I continued with my remaining task and called his wife aside to re-explain.

I learnt better about humility. Patient who’s a sole breadwinner as tin-collector and came in with bad arthritis, a lot of them cant afford to pay for hospital facility, majority of them requested for welfare during follow up-among the many. This place humbled me.

I would especially remember my fellow colleagues and staff in casualty there;)

Of farewell and such..

2011-05-09T06:07:00.000-07:00

Doing housemanship in Kelantan wasn’t my choice. I’ve always envisioned myself working in KL where my social network is based and second home since 12 years old. Instead, I simply fulfilled my parents’s wish after having me abroad for good 5 years. They rarely ask anything from their children so I thought maybe I’ll do it for them this time. So it’s HRPZ II in the application form.

“Dudukla dulu dengan ma abah, nanti dah kahwin ikut suami pulak..’

Their exact words..

Perfectly honest, I cried when I opened up the offer letter as I was indeed posted to Kelantan. It’s this girl thing who grew up with her friends so the thought of living out of town far away from these people made me cringed. But I take in the tears and hope I’ll get something out of it.

Allah is the most gracious.

I went through hell during first month of housemanship..adjustment disorder, in an understatement tone. My parents never leave me alone… They travelled for almost an hour every night just to make sure i had my dinner and kept me company until the next morning, all cramped in that tiny cubicle of hospital quarters. Everyday, my mum would check out on me and give me comfort.

Parents’ unconditional love.

By 2nd month, I can forgo the idea of resignation letter. (I can actually LOL at that thought now!)

As time goes by, I met wonderful people so there were plenty of eating galore and a few road trips/picnic in between work-related grumbles..I also fell in love with my job;)

The past 3 years proved that distance is just a mind over matter. I made monthly visit to KL and still able to enjoy girlfriends’ time on a regular basis. It became more beautiful when they made their presence on my wedding day, laughing at my antics and calming my nerve..

BFF’s, hiks!

Renewed bonding with family and working in comfort zone, now it’s time to go for another adventure…whatever future holds for me, bring in on;)

Dreams Come True..

2011-04-14T08:01:00.000-07:00

Pulau Redang

Sling Back Wedges

Knee Length & Long-Sleeved Dress

Black Skirt

Turquoise's

Mustard's

Opal Collection

Digital Photo Album

iMac desktop

Shades

White iPhone 4

Tupperware-inspired Kitchen

Wii-sports

HERBALIFE-INSPIRED STORY

2011-04-08T19:42:00.001-07:00

Weighing about 60kg at the height of 158cm made me borderline overweight..In fact it went up to 64kg at one point of time..I tried everything within my means to lose weight- skip dinner, exercise everyday for almost an hour even during fasting season, no-carb diet. None of these tricks went beyond the first week for an obvious reason..I cannot give up meals and exercise without proper nutrition would not make big difference.

Started on Herbalife in early 2007 when I was stuck at 60kg with big bum and hip.LOL. It wasn’t an easy decision but real life testimonial from my good friend and extensive research for the past 25 years on COMPLETE NUTRITION convinced me to give it a try..I modified it a bit to fit into my lifestyle but stick to its principle..Alhamdulilllah, it took me about 2 weeks to notice the early change and by the end of first month, I was practically beaming with joy.

After 3 months I managed to shed 7kg and lost about 20cm –big success in my personal achievement. I feel healthier, lighter and more confident with myself.. Never thought that I could fit into size M when it used to be XL and my pant shrunk from 32 to 28..On top of that, i didnt go through any starvation to succeed and my migraine-gastritis combo also improved..

This year marked my 4th year with Herbalife..I’m happy to say that even after I stopped taking it on a regular basis (daily) for about 3 years,my weight remained 52-53kg and still wear the same size of clothes..So, I’m a living proof that Herbalife does not cause yo-yo diet..I only make sure I eat healthily (most of the time,ehehe) and that’s it…

For the year 2011, I have better plan..I wanna resume on Herbalife to maintain good nutrition (fact: I should be doing so for the past 3 years actually but I didn’t, ouch!). Good thing about Herbalife nutritional programme is that I can follow different regime for different purpose, namely to maintain good health, lose weight and even gain weight;)

Among minerals and vitamins contained in Herbalife, i'm particularly interested in Folate (57.75microgram/serving) and Calcium (96.25mg/serving).

Medical notes:

1.The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) reports that women who take the recommended daily dose of folate/folic acid starting at least one month before they conceive and during the first trimester of pregnancy reduce their baby's risk of neural tube defects by 50 to 70 percent.

2. Young women (adolescents and young adults) need to make sure they get enough calcium, as they can achieve their peak bone mass just after this age. Adequate amounts of calcium will help her bones reach optimum bone density. This can help protect her from osteoporosis later in life. Mature women need calcium to prevent break down of bone. There is also a growing body of research that suggests that calcium may prevent PMS.

While i am not yet pregnant, it is common sense that i should start on folate early because by the time i go for dating scan, i may be on later stage of first trimester.. It's also a good news as Herbalife is also safe for mother in confinement/breastfeeding (ok, i'm being far-fetched here.LOL)

Back to school..

2011-04-03T08:20:00.000-07:00

My sick leave is gonna end today..the feeling is similar to when I was going back to school after the end of the year’s break... feeling anxious of what’s going to be like when almost everyone knew about my condition, the price to pay for being in district hospital (crap, I even had one pharmacist in another hospital who was aware about the news!) maybe a bit excited of going back to work and getting my brain working after leading an idle (almost sedentary) lifestyle for a few weeks…dreading the thought of doing oncall, but hey, that’s an extra cash for my shopping!

You know the feeling when you had too long holiday and you started to feel guilty for not doing anything beneficial during that period? As a self-defense, I think I’m doing pretty alright..perhaps only spent the first two weeks of fully recovering and after that, a few fruitful things I’ve done and learnt.

‘Tanyalah Ustaz’- 7-8am everyday on channel 119 is now one of my favourite channel. Back to when I was still working, that hour doesn’t allow me to join my parents having breakfast while watching the segment because I would either be putting quick make up then rushing to the car…so when I was at home, I tried not to miss it. The topics are all very relevant, presenter who are informative but able to keep the humour and just the right way to start the day. So I promised myself that after this, I’ll wake up early so that by 7am, I will be ready and can spent almost half an hour on this segment before going for work.

EAT,PRAY,LOVE- I made sure I finished the book before watching the movie and glad I did.I know i'm soo behind but can't blame me for the kind of job i take up (lame excuse, d'uhh!) . it was worthwhile. For some reason, i could easily relate her quest to what i went through recently and by the time i finished the last page, i felt some sort of relieved and hopeful..one of the things she learnt in italy is to find a her word and mine would be 'BELIEVE'

I spent almost a month up north being a housewife..and that's when i stopped wishing to be one. LOL! i's not that easy being a domestic goddess apparently...i counts on my blessing for having a life partner who's not only good in cooking (and rescuing my disastrous attempt in kitchen) but also neat and particular in cleanliness..makes life so much easier,hehe..still have lotsa empty pages in my recipe book though;)

I ventured into another business, purely inspired by my mum....for now, there're kaftan (fondly known as baju kelawar), tudung bawal, telekung vietnam and batik lukis...it all started when i need a distraction from my illness and i wanna do something i enjoy as side-track from medicine..another way to pursue in sunnah Rasulullah..

I'm a great fan of wishlist...most of my wedding wishlist came true so that explains...the latest is buying the complete set of shopaholic series..when in need of inspiration, i came up with wishlist for this year...it's really therapeutic when i put happy thought into words...it doesnt matter whether it materialises or not, but i can feel my spirit lifts up and the world becomes more colourful...

Final words, i actually had to re-type half of this entry because of some technical error so i'm late for bed...

Wake me up at 6.15am!

Batik Lukis Jacquard

2011-03-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

CODE: J001

Price: RM199

CODE: J002

Price: RM199

CODE: J003

PRICE: RM199

CODE: J004

PRICE: RM199

CODE: J005

PRICE: RM289

BAJU TIDUR KAFTAN, TUDUNG KELAWAR..

2011-03-05T15:14:00.001-08:00

I was only 16 when i first started doing business... As my hometown is in Kelantan, I told my mum that i wanted to sell tudung to my friends in Seri Puteri.. I was actually inspired by her who was doing business as her side income apart from being a teacher...it runs in the family..

Mum supported my idea (yippie yay!) and I came back to the hostel after school holiday with a box of tudung. At that time, tudung bawal isnt as famous as now and there're other nice materials that was the 'in' thing..I brought about 20 pieces to sell..

I wasnt all confident that anyone would buy it (inferiority complex, so to speak.heh!) but after a few days, they were sold out!

The best thing was i got to keep all the cash afterwards ( translation: pocket money)

LOL!!

Every now and then since we left school, I had friends who visited Kelantan and volunteered myself to bring them to Pasar Siti Khadijah, Bazar Buluh Kubu or Arked Uda to shop. It's a well-known trick that if you speaks like a true Kelantanese, the prices will be much cheaper...So that's what i am for,heheh..

It has been more than a decade now. I would like to re-live the experience but we're no longer staying in Dorm Kiambang or studying in 4 Ilmu ; kelantan is maybe thousands mile from your house or even if you do come here, the dialect might be tricky.

So i'm here to make your life easier

CLICK KELANTAN'S BAZAR for new collection of baju tidur kaftan, tudung bawal and batik Kelantan..

Random..

2011-02-24T00:15:00.000-08:00

1. People said that the best way to get to a man's heart is through his stomach, but i'm having difficulty here as my husband is a wayyyyyyy better cook than me..as simple as i often opt for simple pasta for lunch while he'll easily come out for rice with at least 3 meals...bingg banngg!

It's not actually a new fact for me we happen to share lotsa mutual friend and whenever one of them got to know that i'm marrying him, he/she will say how lucky i am for having a ~~top chef~~ someone who can cook as life partner... One time i was oncall and he's back in hometown for a short holiday, i ~~made him bring lunch for me~~ was offered lunch that he cooked at home...oh my, not only they're all scrumptious, there's nooooo wayyyy i'll be able to cook those traditional dishes... I did attempted to cook by myself on one occasion but had to call him out from the living room to *chuckle* modify the taste...

*grim face*

So my plan is actually use my recipe book *wipe the dust* again to ~~copy past~~ observe (and of course help him out, phhbbttt) his cooking and take note of the steps.

That'll do for now i think;)

2.

It's gonna be OK...

2011-02-19T04:26:00.000-08:00

When i looked at the image, my heart sank...i knew what's the top of differential diagnosis as i've been dealing with these through my work line.

Upon presented myself to the specialist with the investigation done, i couldnt handle it anymore...i was so much in denial, i broke down in front of her. i knew the diagnosis already and its a lot to take in...trying to buy time (and still hoping that we both could be wrong), i requested to be referred to the subspecialty for this condition after the weekend...

Amidst the tears and so many thoughts running through my mind, slowly i learnt to accept the news...its devastating but its not the end of the world...

By the time i turned up to the subspecialty clinic, i'm more prepared and ready for treatment...Thanks to the joyous (ex-boss) clinician, i did feel a lot better after coming out from her room..It was actually a missed diagnosis back in October last year but let's not dwell on it..Allah certainly planned everything well..

Now i'm already on treatment and slowly regaining my strength back.. emotionally and physically, i must say...Apart from little side effect, i'm coping with the illness..

2 days back while having breakfast, mum pointed out that Allah must've loved me alot because i never get things easy...be it education, career, love life and now health issue...but all ends well each time..i silently agreed because i thought of the same thing earlier on...Allah loves me so much to give me trial one after another...He wants to keep me closer to him, thus testing my patience and faith this way.. I must've gotten too occupied with heavy workload and marriage that He somehow missed me and wants me to spend more time with Him...Alhamdulillah, i'm grateful for that because i realised at the end of the day, it's Allah and only Allah whom i need to please...i'm enjoying my solitude with peace of mind...

Disclaimer:

1. Sorry but i have no intention to disclose the diagnosis to the public.. Those whom i have shared, please please respect my wish...Those i didnt, its not that i dont trust but i cant handle too much of sympathy..I know that you all care and that comfort me enough..but i would really appreciate prayers from you, honestly....

2. This also should stop people from giving remarks that why does doctor fall sick? we're human first then doctor, mind you.

3. I shall say that this is nothing related to pregnancy (before anyone jumps into the conclusion) but surely affect my family planning..so pls be tactful before you pop up that fave question, ok?

My sugar and spices...

2011-02-18T15:37:00.000-08:00

Love love love the last picture...its like, ohh so Mangga =p

One month's

2011-01-03T06:41:00.000-08:00

Save the best for the last...that's how i would describe our marriage..ahh,
corny!

What i'm saying is actually, save your love after the marriage...yes, he put up
strict rules during our 1 year of courting that irritated me at first..no
dating, no phone calls, no romantic lines..i almost thought that he wasnt
serious...until he told me that he's coming to ask for my hand with his
family...and that was after one meeting with him about 5 months back

We were introduced by a mutual family friend and honestly, it didnt cross my
mind at all that thing's gonna work up..aint saying that it's an arranged
marriage though cos after the brief hello, we were left to decide on our
own..nobody tried to interfere or anything like that..

We let Allah decided for us...i prayed and asked for guidance from Allah..and
slowly HE showed me the way..so does him..

Even as i was annoyed with his insensitivity and lacking contact, i put my trust
in HIM..deep inside, i know he is the answer to my prayers, an imam and someone
who loves me more than i do who showed it in a very subtle way.. it's not like
we never argued about that but after a while (with long explanation from him), i
realised that he's simply following syariat for future 'baiti jannati' (ok, i
lied....i still grumbled once in a while,lol!)

Fast forward to now, i'd say we're happily and blissfully married.. all the
sacrifices and patience finally paid off..it's so much like save the best for
the last, isnt it?

(Dont worry, there'll be no P.D.A from us)

Wedding

2011-01-03T06:16:00.000-08:00

The wedding as what i would like it to be...simple but merry with happy faces
and good laugh from loved ones... the solemnisation was held at home as i
requested (thanks abah) and went smoothly...i should thank my sweet girlfriends
for being there to witness the moments (and made silly jokes that takes the
jittery away)...honestly, i didnt feel like i was getting married but rather
playing dress up with the girls...no emotional tears or anything like that, i
said my silent prayers...but it took me more than 2 minutes to actually hold my
husband's hand for 'membatalkan air sembahyang'..at that time, reality hasnt
sink it that i am finally bonded to this man and it's ok to touch him..drama
queen!

It was a beautiful reception not because of the make up or home decoration...but
rather seeing friends and family, all celebrating and enjoying themselves (or
so, i hope!) together with hujan rahmat...we created guestbook to cherish those
who came and will keep all the best wishes safe..i do hope that everyone who
made the effort to come all the way enjoyed themselves in every
way..alhamdulillah, everything went well eventhough it's raining and i was
afraid that we couldnt serve the guest on time because we prepared the dishes in
traditional way...to those we helped out, may Allah bless and reward everyone
justly..

Pictures updated in Facebook!

03-12-2010

2010-12-02T15:34:00.000-08:00

Masya Allah, time flew faster! i've spent half of my holiday already....

No, that's not what i wanna say actually..

Today is the day.

I havent got any jittery-fluttery feeling yet but i'm praying that the event will run smoothly and be blessed by Allah..

and i've got one huge family gathering and mini reunion of beloved friends to look forward!!

Thanks for all the warm wishes and prayers, angels!

Ticker..

2010-11-28T16:32:00.000-08:00

...to which i dont have one. when it should be one of the most awaiting moment in my life, i dont even bother to put a countdown or anything..

So, am i not excited or what??

Not really...i just wanna keep this on low key note as much as possible. Yes, it is something worth thousands of word and pictures but i simply do the countdown in my mind..

Patutla sampai hari 1st day cuti, solat tersalah kiblat sampai 2 kali di rumah sendri....2nd time tuh baru adik perasan then tegur..arghh, memalukan sungguh...but i blamed the praying mat for that,teheee!

Must've been all jumbled up inside my head...even after putting a long list of what to do for each day till thursday..

Alhamdulillah, so far the preparation is going well. Now it's down to finalising the dais, dress(es), doorgifts and room. I've also emailed the photographer the details of all events and how i want the moments to be captured...hopefully it'll all turn out good.

Lotsa family and friend will be there this weekend, looking forward!

Ya Allah, pls ease the way and let it run smoothly..

Sincerely...

2010-11-20T06:20:00.000-08:00

Thanks to Farina for the special entry on how to get rid of acne scars...honestly, it has never been a major problem on my skin till the last fasting month (remember my drama queen episode?!) yeahh, i suffered from major break-outs and the scar was hideous..

I've been using oxy10 (finished one tub with superb result to clear away active acne) and currently on tea-tree cream. Also started to routinely apply aloe-vera and clarifying mask, next in line would be honey and lime...i realised that i have sensitive skin so i have to go easy with chemical and try more natural remedy..

Thanks to Aneesa for the word of wisdom...honestly, i havent been feeling jiggly or anything like that about getting married because i'm swamped out by oncall every two days...i hope i'll be able to cope with long distance marriage for the time being and everything will run smoothly, amin...

Thanks to my favourite aunt for checking out on me...i havent been myself for the past few days, no thanks to heavy workload and women's monthly visit...doubts and insecurity creeps in, it's not easy to handle when mind hasnt been thinking right...but i'm all good now...

Thanks to my other favourite cousin for calling me up on his birthday just to let me know that he's getting one of my wishlist..

Thanks to my mum who has been doing multitasking in preparation for the wedding...she decided to take care more than what she needed to, God bless her!

Thanks to my angels who decided to book tickets to be here on 4/12/2010...looking forward to meeting them all!

Thank You Allah for sending me love through these people..

WEDDING WISHLIST

2010-11-08T04:31:00.000-08:00

I love house accesories that comes in white colour..

During my stay in Melbourne, i bought the set for 4 of this Corelle design so add-ons would be nice...

Perfect little retreat with comfy beddings

Tupperware collection to get me going with cooking;)

His and hers items are such cutesy

Fruit juice maker-another way of healthy lifestyle

Digital Al-Quran- soothing sound for the ears

Shop Till Drop...

2010-10-19T05:11:00.000-07:00

'Ahhhh, the sweet smell of heaven...'

I literally stopped at the entrance of the mall and take a deep breath, smiling from ear to ear..!

I'd voted this experience as the best ever for the preparation, even when i had to be alone for more than 6 hours on the first day when Fiance was running (super duper!!) late from somewhere else...i had every right to sulk for that but choose not to..ahh, proud of myself;) In fact, i enjoyed myself browsing through from one shop to another and waited till he arrived to buy my (instant!) dream bag...

We had it better on 2nd day... managed to find everything on the list and much to his delight, i settled for this particular shoes after much contemplation and surveying (typical!)...it's sooooo soooooo nice to go shopping when u dont have to worry about price tag and all because you know it's your once-in-a-lifetime-wedding (insya Allah!) so u can splurge without feeling guilty;)

In between the spree, we set a lunch date with my besties and they got along pretty quick...i'm happy!

We headed home 2 hours before the shop closed...Deep inside, i'm envious of those who're getting married next cos they'll have this marvellous experience to enjoy while i'm already done with it...

The best thing in the wedding to-do-list!

Now where's the list?

2010-10-10T06:38:00.000-07:00

Ahh, apology..i should've invited you people to my wedding in previous note but i was in hurry to shut down my laptop and catch up with good sleep;)

So here i am inviting you to be part of the day..I dont plan anything big and it's going to be a simple 'kampung' wedding but i'd really appreciate if you could be there...please leave ur address for card delivery..

I created a check list while scribbling my mind away during a course in Pulau Kapas last July (talking about going to a medico-legal talk with none that i know of..) it has been useful ;)

Invitation list

Not an easy task. Still waiting for Fatma to email me SSPians database (practicality rules!), scratching my head to make a list for KMB, Monash, HRPZ II and the easiest would be for HTM.. Ahh, worst come to worst, i still have facebook kan? Not taking an easy way but it's quite impossible to reach each and everyone so please forgive me for doing so..

Wedding card

I planned to get it done while Fiance's still around during Eid but who would've thought 16th Sept would be a holiday for businessman as well..So i had to wait for the next weekend and drag my fab girls to accompany...it was hillarious trip with my bad sense of direction but definitely worth the fun. The choices were all nice and most importantly, dirt cheap;) Found the one that matched the theme and quickly made order before i switched to the usual fickle-minded...Now it's at the printing shop and hoping to send it away by November..

Updated: dang! the printing shop couldnt keep their promise to get the sample ready by 1 week. Lucky Fiance was around so i requested him to send them to another printing shop. The funny thing is that the card is no longer simple because Fiance took the effort to do the finer details..not that i know the difference between usual printing and customised stamp pad. ahhh, i shall see the result within this week and hopefully, it will be ready for hand/post-delivery by early next month..

Dais

None of the collection around the shop caught my attention ~~or within my budget~~ so i decided to google it. hehehe, found it! Again, it was so simple that the shop owner said it's more like engagement mini dais..but i believe the colour and flower arrangement will make up for it..anyway, it's going to be an informal event and the dais is merely for doa selamat and photo session so i i'm happy...now its a matter of convincing mum that it'll be more lovely with fresh flowers...

Dresses

So the bridal shop owner is actually my mum's long distance relative..She told me that the package price for is for 5 dresses max so i havent got the chance to try them all yet...planning to do so this weekend i guess..as for the akad and his reception, waiting for the tailor to fix them all..oh, i need to survey some ready-made dress for the outdoor session. Dont worry, the session will be in between our reception so u wont find us MIA during your visit;)

Photographer

I was a bit dissapointed as my engagement's photographer (cum-good-friend) told me that he's going away during the wedding so i had to browse through the net again..after comparing a few pacakge, found the one that gives the best deal within my budget..perhaps not the best but i guess it's just a matter of the environment and people around that makes good snapshot;) he's a freelancer that's actually working in KL but his clients were mostly in hometown. Thank God he could spare another day for the outdoor session...i'm hoping for candid pictures with lovely faces and gleeful smile from family and friends;)

Doorgift

A bit of tragedy as i decided to buy it without consulting my mum. I guess i took her word of 'simple' at face value without actually clarifying...hahaha, 700 pieces ok! Visit to Nilai saved the day...we found better deal within agreeable price. So all is good now, it's a matter of decorating them all. As for the earlier buy, i thought of kids and the affection to sweets...!

I shall leave the best part of all till the next entry;)

Bridezilla!

2010-09-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

I thought i should wait till Eid is over before making any preparation because i dont wanna look or sound too enthusiastic, but here i am 2 months away with long list of things to book/buy..

Heheh, drama queen!

The best thing i had ever done was to decide on theme colour early..it was way back during engagement prep actually and i'm proud to say i havent change my mind..yet;) Those around me would nod in agreement because nobody would wanna deal with my fickle-mind ....I could easily go unsure about my decision and ponder on choices for as long as i want..driving everyone crazy..a usual scenario during our eating-outs;)

As for the date,

3rd Dec: akad nikah

4th Dec: My reception

6th Dec: his reception

30th Dec: my birthday

eh, silap! termasuk pulak yang last tuh...teheeee;)

Kisah klasik..

2010-09-26T05:03:00.000-07:00

Haih, i feel really bad for leaving this space for so longgg...i'm really sorry!

So this will be for those who remains here...a snippet of what happened last 2 months. At first i didnt feel quite right to share because it might be misunderstood, but what the heck..i'd like to remember the story as our kisah klasik;)

I last met my fiance during our engagement ceremony (tehee, he was there actually..) so when he told me that he'll be back for Ramadhan, i thought he'd like to see me..but for some reason, he thought it's ok if we dont meet up..

Ahh, this drama queen was quick to respond.. i said ok, fine but let's not contact each other for the whole Ramadhan..! hah, speaking of woman's ego..

So even if i was ill with unremitting fever, parents' away for the whole fasting month and the worst break-outs i have ever had in my life...i didnt budge from my decision..so did he.

That's not the end of the drama. Even if he send me the sweetest sms on Eid, i still had the nerve to disregard his effort and feed my pride...Thank God someone in the family decided to smack me on my head (not literally, ok!) and the rest is history.....

So we're all good and this will be part of our 'kisah klasik' for our next generation;)

Death angel..

2010-07-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

Do you know what i hate most about my job?

No, it's more than those lazy biatches in white uniform...

It's when i have to break the news to the family members that their beloved is dying or couldnt make it.

It crushes my heart everytime.

Let me tell you a brief backgound scenario: most of them were either from middle or low socioeconomic status. Some were old, some were frail, some were poor. These people tugged my heart everytime i look at.

It happened again last night. The husband had to stay back to take care of their little kids. The wife was struggling with dengue shock syndrome. He arrived after we've intubated the patient. I just couldnt describe his expression upon learning the current status, nor could i imagine how he felt. The other children were there, arrived one by one.

He asked for a place to perform prayers. I showed his washroom and politely request a space from the neighbouring patients. So did the children, he asked them to do the same. I quickly turned away and made myself occupied before tears showed up again.

The prognosis was guarded, we the professionals knew it. Yet, we tried our very best to save her with fluids, drugs and CPR. From time to time, i took glance at the old man. He was restless and struggled for the remaining strength. God, thanks for the mask to hide my sadness.

I had to left to attend other ill cases in casualty. After a while, i learned about the death. Secretly, i was relieved for not being there at that moment,

No, it wasnt about the audit...but i could not bear looking at the old man and his children. It was devastating for me.

Ya Allah, please forgive the allahyarhamah and bless her family with strength.

Sakinah. Mawaddah.Rahmah

2010-07-27T06:52:00.000-07:00

I had to take a leave to attend pre-marriage course cos i thought, might as well get it over and done with so that i could focus on doing the preparation after raya.

I didnt put up high expectation for these 2-days event so i brought along another sequale of thriller fiction and my organiser. just in case i doze off, u know;)

I had fun observing the participants instead..

* Out of curiosity, i simply scanned through the name list and IC number because majority of them couldnt be more than 20 years old. Spot on! i wished to ask those 15 years old, what they were doing in this course?? shouldnt they go to school or at least stay at home and help their parents?? goodness gracious, i was busy having fun with my girlfriends and drooling over hot celebrities(shahrukhkhan,LOL?!) around their age. am i ancient?

* I saw it once and i double-checked again. I secretly hoped that the girl only had big tummy and not actually being pregnant. Naive as i might be, her petite frame told me otherwise. I didnt know how to regard the scenario-that it's actually good for her to finally get married or cursed her for carrying baby out-of-wedlock ?

* What should i say about the talk itself? That the one and only example every speaker could think of when it comes to marriage issue is sex. There were at least 5 different terms or sounds they came up with to describe coitus. The only logical explanation i could came up with was that they had to tally the speech content with the audience. As i've mentioned, majority were barely more than 20 years old so these religious personnel had to feed on the kids' raging hormone..or, simply their own??

*I figured that i learned more from reading Saifulislam series than attending this. I have no complaint though cos i secured myself a hidden spot and got engaged in the forensic thrill so by the end of it, i'm done reading the book.

Whatever it is, formality is still a formality. I'll still be going tomorrow.

Tick tock..

2010-07-26T05:24:00.000-07:00

Now, stop browsing through others' blog and start updating yours!

Opsie-daisy, i'm guilty as charged for abandoning this space. perhaps, i've lost the touch of writing my mind but i am not ready to give it up, yet. I mean how the hell am i going to keep in touch with most of my dearest if i dont keep this little journal.

Life has been great, if not better. Alhamdulillah. At least, i know the difference of being busy happily and grumpily idle. Yes, i occasionally recalled my leisure time doing opthalmology but got stuck with almost daily attack of migraine and multiple (stress) mouth ulcer . Now, i dont have ample time as i'll be on my feet around the clock reviewing patients in the ward, finishing off clinic and at times covering for casualty as well. Apart from those lazy nurses, i have no other complaint. i am smiling most of the time and i could really appreciate my job.

Now i understand why people shouldn't get engaged for a long period. I'm blessed with someone so patient, otherwise this might not work out, lol! i could easily throw tantrum and sulk all day long over a tiny issue, but God bless him, he just know how to handle the situation until i cool down.

Okay, i promise to write more over certain life issues/updates..as of now, i feel like having a good chat with my bestie over the phone...

Take care!

Day One

2010-06-16T03:56:00.000-07:00

So today is officially my day one of being a medical officer. Yes, i graduated from housemanship 2 months ago but i would not consider myself as an MO during my opthalmology placement. I didnt use enough brain cells and do much job to qualify as one during the period.

I managed to get the appeal through and started my district placement in HTM instead. Of course i was all nervous and excited at the same time being in new place and environment. I tried to adapt quick.

By 10 am after a quick brunch, i tagged doing medical round then went to cover casualty with another MO. A nice and decent chap. There'll be three of us covering medical.

The pace in this hospital is just nice, not too rushy but not so slow. Everyone's friendly and chatty. The cases that came in today were the usual, nothing emergency. My good buddy was there for a while to accompany me.

By 5pm, i was practially exhausted and starved, but nothing to whine about. I enjoyed listening to the heart and chest, talking to the patients and trying to make up a diagnosis from their story together with my finding. My brain is finally working again after a short dormant period.

I felt contented with my day, anxious nonetheless to start doing oncall this friday. Finally, i feel like everything falls into the right place.

To tops everything up, i'm going for a course in PULAU KAPAS next week!!

p/s: to celebrate, i put up my old blog over the right top. enjoice!

Inner Beauty

2010-06-15T00:01:00.000-07:00

I love hugging and giving my mum a peck on her cheek. Although she had an ageing skin but it is smooth and silky soft. When i asked for her secret, she simply said it was from her ablution.

Awestruck-ed.

So this is my 2010's resolution-to beautify myself from the inside!

* I make it a habit to take ablution each time after using bathroom and recite selawat for each step of skincare routine. easy and practical.

* Cleanse my heart from all those ill-feeling and thoughts. I guess it's easier said than done in this real world but i'm determined to find my way. Hatred, jealousy, rage and stress wont do any good to the well being and it would show on the facial expression somehow, only to quicken ageing process.

* Keep a good thought about others- one of the earliest advice my fiance gave me. heh, that's to summarise woman and insecurity i guess. lol! regardless, the meaning goes a long way indeed. Only if we can filter our thought and impression about other, we'll make a peace of mind- to keep the good ones and leave the rest behind. We can't expect every single person we know to treat us nicely all the time but there must be something GOOD he/she had done to us in the past. Even if the person betrayed or did something nasty to us, the best thing to do is walk away. Dont plot any punishment, Allah knows better.

*Be sincere- These would be applicable for many aspects in life; job-wise and personal relationship. Help others..renew our intention before going to work everyday kerana Allah Taala..believe in the power of giving.

*Forgive others before going to sleep- this is actually Sunnah Rasul, if i'm not mistaken. To err is human. Perhaps when someone hurts us, we might've hurt someone else in the past. Even if we can't forget, try to forgive. It will leave so much space for love in our heart by eliminating hatred and grudge. I'm proud to say that i am able to make peace with certain someone after 10 months of silence and to the one who left me without any word or sign, you're also forgiven.

So even if i could not afford to buy the best skincare range in the market, i hope these would help to keep me glowy and radiant!

Pink-Purple Day

2010-06-12T03:22:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah for 05062010..

It was two days after my mum's birthday, so i hope this was one of her best present..

As the date was finalised mere 2 weeks prior, so i was a bit panicked to get everything done. Thank God i was quick to decide on the theme colour and already got my dress on its way..So the tiny bits of preparation..

Spent some time looking for decent cupcakes and almost got my auntie to book them from a store when my SIL called me up from KL and offered to bring home the customised version..

Made a little conspiracy with my sister to specially request my auntie in Taiping to come home and do decoration for the gifts...i've always treasured personal touch for family event..

Managed to secure the recommended make up artist (he beautified my sister on her wedding day 5 years ago) together with my favourite backdrop

(actually, i first saw the backdrop in purple while browsing through anonymous' blog and fell in love right away...secretly hoping that i could find one for my wedding..but who knows i didnt have to wait that long as it was ready for my engagement)

With a little help from my mum, His and Hers ring materialised and much to my (and almost everyone)'s delight..simple and practical for daily wear.

Tasted this home-made chocolate and wistfully thought that it would be nice to have them on the engagement or wedding..With a little help from my another SIL, they were the doorgift for his side..

Everybody's home!

Parents and the singles...

Ladies in the family...

I believe words and pictures would not justify the going of that day. It was smooth and simple, Alhamdulillah.

Big E

2010-05-30T05:37:00.000-07:00

I guess it's about time to share the news..

Yes, i'm getting engaged!

Who: someone i never mentioned here.

Where: home sweet home.

When: 05062010.

How: erm, istikharah and kuasa Tuhan..

Why: i believe he is the answer to my endless prayers..

Sorry, i wont go into details here although i know some of you deserve to know...i will spill if we got the chance to meet in person, dont worry;)

Thanks for all the prayers all this while...it meant a lot for me..

As for the preparation, everything under control...it's quite a last minutes decision but i managed to decide on things easily (considering my infamous fickle-mind) and happy with the choice..

I'm rather more excited for another family gathering during event actually...hehe

Ahh, please pray that i wont be doing anything silly or flashing too much of my braces on that day!

Salad

2010-05-21T06:34:00.000-07:00

sal·ad /ˈsæləd/ Show Spelled[sal-uhd] Show IPA
–noun
1.a usually cold dish consisting of vegetables, as lettuce, tomatoes, and cucumbers, covered with a dressing and sometimes containing seafood, meat, or eggs.
2.any of various dishes consisting of foods, as meat, seafood, eggs, pasta, or fruit, prepared singly or combined, usually cut up, mixed with a dressing, and served cold: chicken salad; potato salad.
3.any herb or green vegetable, as lettuce, used for salads or eaten raw.
4.South Midland and Southern U.S. greens.
5.any mixture or assortment: The usual salad of writers, artists, and musicians attended the party.
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One of my favourite meals...i find it refreshing and fill my stomach just nice..

But that's how my mind is at the moment too..I've made a pact with Peah to update more frequently, at the very least once a week..So far, i havent been successful. I do have few issues to talk about but got swamped with either work or social events..let's see if i could squeeze some time and write on those accordingly..

PHUKET: WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM..

2010-05-21T04:07:00.000-07:00

That's our tagline, fyi..

1. When you go for buffet breakfast in the hotel, never save any meals for the next day. The menu wont be the same and you might missed tasting the fish porridge until the trip end.sob sob!

2. When you're doing adventurous activity like ATV, do not let your accident prone friend to go first. They might do unnecessary stunt and created worry to your guide. Instead of feeling like a fear factor champion, you'll be doing different route with little if not no tricky path at all.pbbhht..

3. 'I speak no Thai' 'ekumi?'

4. If you're going for snorkelling, always ask for the size of the boat and what's the side activity. Otherwise you'll end up in a large boat with overcrowded passengers feeling nonetheless like an illegal immigrant with few pitstops to drop other passenger. With the big size,'ship' wont go near the beach and the coral view wont be much spectacular.

5. It's a long winding road to most of the destination so do not overstuffed your tummy or underfilled it. Nauseated feeling isn't a nice feeling.

6. Learn to use calculator to bargain the price with the folks.

7. Always bring extra cash to the island because some ATM will dissapoint your shoprednaline')

8. Go for the seafood. You'll sleep with a big smile.

9. If you're feeding the baby elephant, shove the banana through the mouth not the nose, ok? achummmm!

10. Dont feel bad if you forgot your swimming attire and had to resort to the cutesy pyjama pants.You'll never know how much your friends would appreciate the printed colourful pattern as the landmark that they weren't far away from the crowd. lol!!

11. If you're going for some outdoor activities, please..please think twice before yo
opted for some flowery girly top with leggings. We dont want you to cringe upon the 'makcik temah pulang dari kedai' image on the camera screen.

12. Spare some time by the end of the trip for a photo review together. enjoy laughing fit over the expression of each other..

So beauties, thank u for a very wonderful time ..hugs!

P/S: pictures will be updated in FB..

Housemanship and all...

2010-05-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

Today's almost a month since i last addressed myself as a houseman..No, nothing to brag or feel proud about..It's just a huuuugee relief that i have closed the first chapter and looking forward for the next one.

Here's my top five about being HO@Hamba Orang

1. Bekerja kerana Allah. This is not about being holier-than-thou or whatsoever but i learnt that whenever i felt upset with my superior or intimidated by fussy family members, i would take comfort in 'Takpelahhh..aku bekerja kerana Allah..bukannya utk diorg semua" It took away the huge tension that built up over the day and make me feel better instantaneously..

2. Family. I admitted that i was feeling rather low upon receiving the placement letter two years back because i would be the only one among the group who will settle down in this small city. Allah is the Best Know-er, He knew that i would need my family the most during the initial phase. My parents took an effort to come over to my little unit to keep me company every nite and left after subuh..they sometimes brought me dinner cause i'll be tooo tired or frustrated to prepare my own meal. They did that for a few weeks and in between i would drove home just for a few hours of sleep.

3. Little happiness. I didnt know how i came up with this mind game during the terrifying medical rotation. During those days, i was the new intern and struggled very much. Everything seemed wrong and i didnt know whether i was meant for this job. So i created this game so that by the end of my working hour, i should have at least one thing that made me happy and that's how i persevere. It would always end up either one branula successfully inserted, finishing job before lunch hour or a warm thought from the relative...

4. Friends. i had a bunch of crazy ones..None of us share the same personality thus making every hang-out a noisy ones with gossips, jokes and dreams..We sticked together till the present day and hoping to keep it like this.

5. Doa. That's my best friend to keep me going until the end.

So if anyone is thinking of taking up medicine, i would not discourage you. Please do so but with an open mind and for the right intention. You'll stumble, cried buckets or even drafting your very own resignation letter but if you manage to pull yourself up again and keep going, you'll get through..

Spill

2010-04-17T07:06:00.000-07:00

So, can i write my mind off here?

I put my facebook on hiatus-no updates, no reply, no whatsoever until further notice. It used to be a great communication tool to keep in touch and share jokes. Nonetheless, someone created some scene that made me thought- ok, this is no good. i better keep myself away from this highschool drama before i lost my cool.

I aint gonna describe of the ugly scene within the circle but enough to come up with a few lessons- for self reminder at least. Yes, i have no intention to put anyone in uncomfortable position so just listen and ponder.

1. Respect

For me, this is a big word that comes in any relationship. As simple as respecting one's privacy and personal choice can actually bring the friendship to greater length. I do not have to agree to their decision but i shall keep mum about it unless i was asked for some opinion. I know how it feel when people question my preferences regarding certain personal story so i will not act the same way to others. If it's a good news, i will be happy for her and if it's a bad one, i'll just be there if needed. No hard and fast rules about who should be included in the treaty of trust.

Respect also will explain a lot about public embarassement. Truly, if i am having some issues with friend i would most probably keep quiet or try to talk to someone i trusted. I shall not put the person into public embarassement for whatever reason. Even if i do not feel like being the bestest friend, i should not play around with their dignity while lowering down mine. Treat others as how i want to be treated.

2. Apologize

This isnt an easy thing to do so if i decided to go for it, i shall not bring up the issue. ever. again. It's funny if i have admitted my mistakes and yet i keep on acting victim. Doesnt sound right at all. So the next time i realised my bad, i should leave it behind and move forward. This makes the world a better place to live in, seriously! It irked me when people kept on bringing up the past and acted victim so i shall not torture the other with the same attitude.

3. Distance

After all being said and done, it's definitely ok for me to keep friends at arm's length. As i do not mind being excluded by some, i expect the same from the rest. Experiences thought me well on this and people should not hate or blame me for being selective. Even if they do, i have nobody to please but Allah. I shall put my self-respect and dignity forward than anything else. After all, friends come and go, only the real ones will stay.

Over the long holiday, i pondered on this issue and learnt the lesson from what happened within my environment recently. Being at the receiving end of bad anger management widen the distance so i will try my best to keep whatever angst or disagreement to minimum level. I may keep my temper and dissapointment checked most of the time but if i do, i hope i havent hurt anyone's feeling. It's not an excuse for me to lash out on other people when i can't cope with the stress cause no matter what, i will leave a scar.

So i had my reality check. Let the remaining of April be the moment of self-reflection and lesson learnt from others.

Time...

2010-04-03T06:30:00.000-07:00

I took a glance at him on my way to accompany another unfortunate patient with haemorrhagic stroke to CT Scan.

Hmmm, looks like MVA (motorvehicle accident) with poor GCS- possible intracranial bleed .

That's my spot diagnosis towards the gentleman. So i proceed with my task. When i returned to the redzone, he's already being clerked by my fellow colleagues so i just helped around.

Blood pressure remained low side but no compensated tachycardia. FAST showed no evidence of intra-abdominal bleeding.

Finger crossed, let it just be intracranial bleed and none others. Try fluid first.

Blood pressure didnt picked up. Repeated FAST revealed free fluid over the Morrison's pouch.

Awaiting surgical review.

Let's request for portable CXR as the lungs didnt sound right. Forget about the rest of Xray and CT for now. The patient's not stable enough.

Then it happened,

SPO2 dropped. tachycardia. BP remained low despite blood transfusion. abdomen started to distend. CXR showed multiple rib fracture with flail chest and haemothorax.

Pump the blood.

Prepare the intubation.

Suction! patient's pouring out stomach's content profusely.

Find more lines. Three have been used up for blood.We need one for drugs.

PEA. Time for CPR! but the flail chest?

Insert chest tube. 250ml of blood came out.

Adrenaline.

Atropine.

30 minutes.

Aku naik saksi tiada tuhan melainkan Allah, dan Nabi Muhammad itu pesuruh Allah.

Allah.

Allah.

Allah.

Innalillah...

He was living a hard life with his family. Trying to survive with cutting grass by the roadside. That's when he was hit (and run). No family members was by his side when he met with the Death Angel.

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So i ended my chapter in emergency department. Insya Allah, i will be back again with better experience and knowledge.

Resolutions

2010-03-29T05:32:00.000-07:00

The words lingered, stinging everytime i thought of it. Of course it only brings back negative vibe to which i never enjoyed

So i came up with a 2 years' plan. No, i dont do sweet revenge but i am to prove my worthiness...

- Since i wont get any recommendation to stay, i'll go wherever they're going me to send me away. No point arguing with those who doesnt care.

- Apply for district hospital as soon as possible. I figured, instead of wasting time doing something i never enjoyed (that's what scapegoat does, anyway) i might as well face my fear and get away from my comfort zone. Hospital Tanah Merah would be ideal for a few reason-experience and logistic.

- Find ways to attend all those required course-PALS, BLS, ALS and another course which i forgot.

- Buy books and read up!

- Get acquinted with those who're doing Master and get to know the pathway.

- After a year, go to JKNK and demand for transfer.

- Do the ultimate step: apply for Master in Emergency Medicine.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalanku ini..

The End Is The Beginning..

2010-03-28T05:49:00.000-07:00

In a few days' time, i will end my housemanship..Previously i was all excited to come up with a list on how to make it all memorable, if not durable.

But today i learnt the real truth.

No matter how good your work performance,

No matter how much you value the job for personal satisfaction,

No matter how well you answer the question during the final assessment,

No matter how earnest you feel about pursuing the specialty,

No matter how humble you walk around the rest,

No matter what..

But if you dont have pretty face with flirty appearance, you're just nothing.

You're not even welcomed nor recognised.

But as the words above mean,

This is just the beginning.

I take this as a challenge to fulfill in 5 year's time.

For i believe that my fate is not in your hand.

I forever have My LOrd with me.

Comeback

2010-03-22T04:00:00.000-07:00

I thought i would be writing something nice and happy to make up for the infrequent update but i guess, i need to get this out of my system.

Have i been bad for keeping something to myself to avoid fitnah?

I've observed so many. I've learnt from others. I dont wanna be the topic for conversation. I dont wanna make fool of myself again.

I thought it will be better to keep mum about it until i am certain myself.

Little did i know, when i finally decided to share..it became the reason for hatred and misunderstanding.

Nevermind.

Now i know whom i can count on. Now i accept that people can treat others differently simply by superficial insight about the whole scenario.

2010-02-26T03:20:00.000-08:00

Ok.

Hai anonymous.

I didnt realise you're here until the email notification announcing your comment. Apparently that's not the only one. You've left several more but they went unnoticed before.

You cannot possibly be one of my friends or family because they'll say their name right away, i'm sure. But you sounded like a nice person so that doesnt bother me much. Thanks for your kind words and concern though. It seemed genuine, at least.

I dont know whether we could be friend or not because i dont leave my contact number or mail around for you to contact me personally. But if you're comfortable being my far-away acquintance, it's fine by me too.

Ahah!

Maybe you can be my imaginary friend, just like when we were kids so that i could talk to you without feeling anxious over the secret being heard by others.

What do you think?

Pending

2010-02-26T03:09:00.000-08:00

Apology.

A month went by without a word in here. I'm not mourning over the loss but rather too occupied in moving forward.

yup, just like what Dory said in Finding Nemo..

'Keep moving, keep moving..'

What did i promised for February actually?

New start isnt it. So i choose to rejoice what matters most in my life-apart from faith that is.

Family.

I had great time with them over two wedding and an engagement over CNY break. The happy faces. The silly jokes. I shall put up some photoes as proof. Later.

Ok, honestly i am losing my flow of writing here. I should practise more. I promise. After i return from my girls' trip to Terengganu.

Toodles!

Sleepless

2010-01-24T06:43:00.000-08:00

As i lied awake in the hospital bed, waiting for the antibiotic to kick in...

I thought of January..

Little did i know, when i said that it will be the month of letting go..it would be losing my 2 favourite men.

The first one was by choice. He could not make it. He chose to dissapear into the thin air. He chicken out. He dare not to say whatever the reason for his absence. It's funny, when i thought i learnt from previous mistake and can actually have platonic relationship..the very person chicken out. so i thought, ok fine. just go away. i wish i can be this mean bitch that keeps on wishing he will learn his lesson for treating a girl like a shit but i did not. i just wanna forgive him and keep my heart lighter. perhaps i'm not a good person either in the past.

But the second one was inevitable. my very own clique, my closest buddy has got his transfer application approved. damn, my heart sank when i first heard about the news. there wont be six of us anymore. being happily married but living a bachelor life (as his wife's abroad), he's been our partner in crime since. if the world has snail mail, we then have snail jokes when one funny stories/incident would lead to another good laugh..and we keep our youth that way.. and my latest inside joke with him would be ' a date with indonesian maid watching badminton'. go figure! deyyy, you will be sorely missed:p

Two different ending. Two different emotion.

Falling harder

2010-01-16T04:18:00.000-08:00

Tak lelah
Kau beri sgalanya
'Tuk yakinkan ku
Kau sayang pada ku
Hingga kau
Taklukkan diriku
Membuat ku tersedar
Ku t'lah merasakan sesuatu

Di saat ku mulai sayang
Di saat ku mulai cinta
Kau yang hilangkan rasa untukku

Chorus:
Sedih yang mesti ku pendam
Rasa yang menjadi hampa
Ku jalani semua
Walau cinta kini tak berarah

Kau pergi tak beralasan
Tak seperti yang ku pinta
Ku menunggu tiba waktu kau ucapkan
Kau sayang padaku

Life Expression

2010-01-07T23:03:00.000-08:00

This will be the month i choose to let go and move on.

This will be the month i wanna love myself more.

This will be the month i will laugh louder.

This will be the month when i will forgive and smile.

This will be the month everything starts new

Reflection

2009-12-30T13:56:00.001-08:00

While some dreams come true, the rest choose to wait for a while

It's been a good year, alhamdulillah..

Written almost a year ago

It's time to list down about 2009...

1. I'm planning to join my family for umrah this coming March. Hopefully by then i'll be in either paeds or ortho so that 14 days break (including weekend) wouldn't be an issue.

2009: Alhamdulillah, Allah granted my wish and welcomed me to HIS place. I had my best 2 weeks there. solitude and serene. I remembered one day after performing tawaf, i prayed behind Maqam Ibrahim. Instead of the usual doa asking for things, i started to say my thank..tears overflowed when i realised how much Allah has blessed me through my life...i thanked Him for the loving family with unconditional love, i thanked HIM for the job that allows me to stay humble and made a difference in people's lives, i thanked HIM for friends that stick around and guide me, i thanked HIM for the faith that keeps me going stronger after each trial, i thanked HIM for the love and blessing that HE showed in every other way..it was endless.

That morning i felt complete. That morning i could not ask for more. That morning i was ashamed for being ungrateful at times for He has given more than i deserved.

Aim: insya Allah will be going back again this May

2. I'm buying a new laptop. The old one's still in good shape but i think i wanna have a smaller one for travelling (EXCUSE! EXCUSE! EXCUSE!) I think i can reward myself with that once i'm done with O&G...lalalala

2009: i got it right with my White AcerOne. i love its 6 hours battery durability and the size that fits well into my bag for travelling.

Aim: i think a flat screen desktop would be nice, but that one has to wait till i got a house for myself.

3. It's time to settle down with a marriage=)

2009: I am still single to date but if i look back, Allah granted my other wish. I met my dream guy and no, it's not the typical tall-dark-handsome with smooth talk. What made him special was the little things. It was the way he respected me and other people around him. the way he appreciate life and his loved ones. the way i can be a little girl whenever he's around. the way our impromptu meet-up had always been beautiful. the way he took care of my bad habit. the way he understood me without telling.the way we shared so many common interest.

So why i am still not settled? only Allah knows. even so, i am eternally grateful for the good 4 months i had with my favourite man. Allah has showed me His love through him.

Aim: Ya Allah, kurniakanku seorang jodoh yang terbaik buat diriku, yang dapat membimbingku ke jalanMu, yang dapat mengasihiku keranaMu.

Seandainya dia tercipta buat diriku, bukakanlah pintu hati kami berdua, tautkanlah ikatan hati hati, permudahkanlah urusan kami dah peliharalah kami dari maksiat. Seandainya dia bukan untukku, tutupkanlah pintu hatiku kepadanya, luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku dan jauhi aku dari kesedihan dan kekecewaan.

4. I'm going travelling with my girlfriends (whichever clique it might be). It's so much better to shop and pamper myself with my hardly-earned money...

2009: I didnt get to travel with my besties per say but had wonderful memories nonetheless. We went to watch legendary PGL theatre, we stayed overnight and the beautiful Villa Danilla and we enjoyed a few shopping trip. And yes, the glittery glamorous nite of SSP9599 was one memorable event.

Aim: trip to Europe, karaoke session, shows at Istana Budaya, overnight stay at fancy hotel and more shopping trips..

5. I'm going to finish up reading all the books i bought earlier last year and polish up my average English.

2009: I got to catch up with my reading. Currently reading La Tahzan and Devils Wear Prada. In between those two, i finished up Remember me. My favourite pick will be The Last Lecture and Life Is An Open Secret.

Aim: read the shophaholic series and stock up more books from MPH online.
2009:

6. Addition to my collection of clothes, bags, watches, perfumes and shoes....

2009: Ahaaa, this one goes without saying..perfectly achieved

Aim: ey, should i say more? ;P

7. Make more money and share it with others...

2009: All thanks to Herbalife. Many started to understand about the good nutrition and choose to change their life using it.

Aim: montly trip to KL to monitor the wellness of my client. Now that i've got the scale that can highlight our body fat/water percentage/metabolic age(!!!)/bone mass, it'll be easier to plan for better habit.

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I wish for myself, better patience and more gratitude.

I wish for myself, endless happiness and blessing.

I wish for myself, guidance from the Up Above

Happy ~~17th~~ birthday;)

Indeed

2009-12-26T14:58:00.000-08:00

My facebook update's written as

'has been blessed with so many great news and sweet little good time with the loved ones..looking forward for more..Alhamdulillah'

It was a perfect lunch by the beach with my favourite man.

The three stooges re-united

I'll be off to KL on the 29th for double celebration (the perks of being end of year's baby)..

Dinner on the 2nd will be next in line..

A.B.C

2009-12-21T02:12:00.000-08:00

" When the morning comes upon you, then do not expect the evening, and when you see the night, do not expect to see the morning"

So many soothing words in La Tahzan, i feel like quoting each and everyone. I need to slow down reading it, otherwise i'll finish it sooner than i wish...it's like savouring my favourite meal..i want the taste to last longer..

That's gonna be my next hobby..instead of recipes collection (hihihi, i think i give up on that..so many recipes that left un-attempted) i'll do words collection...i have a lot from my emails and several books...so instead of browsing through the long list of emails or searching cover to cover for words of comfort, i shall reach out for the pink notes..

Ah, here's one that i receive today

"When driving down the road of life, rarely do you know how good you have it, until you see it in the rear-view mirror.

Which is not to suggest that you should look back now, but to remind you that where you are today is more awesome and amazing than you probably realize."

But of course, none of these would match the Tafseer Al Quran=)

That reminds me of my next purchase of book once i reach MPH soon..

Peace of Mind

2009-12-19T06:47:00.000-08:00

All praise to Allah for the patience and strength.

I was all good again.

I am currently reading La Tahzan . So many beautiful words, food for the soul..

It was an impromptu plan to go for an overnight at Villa Danialla, Tok Bali on my day off after a night call. I was exhausted and hungry but excited all the same. We took a few wrong turns but alas, managed to find the place. We unpacked home-cooked lunch and enjoy sea breeze afterwards.. had a quick trip to the nearest night market before calling the day off ...

started off the next day with a quick jogging and enjoyed breakfast by the beach..took some time to laze around at the gazebo and dozed off..around 11am, i'm on the road again as my evening shift started at 3pm...it was a perfect retreat and i am looking forward for the next!

Confession

2009-12-14T16:29:00.001-08:00

Have you experienced suicidal experience?

I had, yesterday.

My very first (and will be the last!) short journey of feeling a total worthlessness and bleak.

It's not exactly like i am planning to end my life but it's more of a lingering thought as sobbed

'If i died, will i be missed? does it even matter to anyone?

That's the price to pay for suppresing and bottling up almost everything. I reached my breaking point at the smallest issue. I know i am not a good do-er and heaven is not promised but i also cannot cope. Thus the thought of leaving everything behind and forget.

I'm now suffering splitting headache with sore eyes.

Never proud of this but i guess it's ok to admit. perhaps after so many years and when i decided to open up this page again, i would knock my head for being so silly.

So it's high time for a revision of life to bring myself closer to Allah.

I shall recite Quran and Tafseer more. I shall pray harder. I shall write and talk to Him more. I shall seek out his guidance and blessings in every step of my life.

There said.

Necessity

2009-12-09T07:43:00.000-08:00

I misplaced my HTC charger so i need to get a replacement as i'm planning to use it for my mobile pda..i have so many things in mind to remember

I'm still contemplating whether i shuld get Celcom prepaid because i dont feel like having 2 phone lines but at the same time, Maxis coverage in emergency department is almost non-existent. Now that i dont have to worry about staff nurse's annoying calls in the middle of the night, i kinda missed my listening to my ringtones ;p (but i must bear in mind, i am most likely unable to pick up the calls anyway)...but considering any emergency,i think i might as well get one..

I realised the reason of my rare updates is because i'm only connected to internet when i'm at my parents' home. By then, i will spend hours on blog-hopping and reading Facebook's update. The rest will be either in front of the television or spending time with my mother or reading storybook. I need to update more to keep my brain going ( and of course, to let things out a bit). I need more time to go online for my business purpose and leisure reading. Also it will come handy when i'm travelling.

I think that justifies my decision to get myself Celcom broadband soon.

I have so many things to jot down but that have to wait..hopefully i'll get weekend off again')

My 10 list

2009-12-05T06:31:00.000-08:00

I have good reasons for this wishlist

It's my birthday coming up soon

It's christmas season

and it's year-end-sale!!

I'm drooliiinngggg just at the thought of it....please, someone bring me to the restaurant...somewhere near sunway pyramid kan??

After receiving my first wishlist of Tanita Body Composition Analysis, i'm determined to upgrade my metabolic rate and cut down the body fat so this is the fun way to do it..plus i'm in dire need for high ENDORPHINS rush. feel young, look young!

It was a few months' ago since my last spa session so i'm due for one...some 'me' time and i'm happy to get going again.. everybody loves being pampered

I know this is really last year's season but i care less. I have no time to try this everytime i'm in KL and i would looovveeee to dip my feet in it next time i have the chance..Promise, i wont turn ppl deaf while i'm doing it!

It took me almost a year to finish up body scrub i bought in bandung. I love the feeling after, so smooth so refreshing..I've tried orange flavour so i'd go for something sweet this time

Yes, i still have my seasoned digital camera in good condition but it's a bit bulky for travelling (and looked oudated,hahaha!) but more importantly, i lost the adaptor and charger...instead of finding replacement, might as well buy a new one kan? i can still use the old one for any outdoor activities (and borrow my brother's adaptor to transfer the pictures into laptop) but this one will re-invite the excitement of capturing the moments..

I bought my first statement tees when i was in KL last time and have yet to wear it..i know Padini and Giordano have some cheeky ones to my liking..its like an instant booster for me to look at these words..

2 years-record proved that i will be out of town every month so this one will come handy..i usually travel light because i've left my stuff in KL for daily use but what if i'm coming back after shopping spree? Also what if i'm going elsewhere? hehe...

Fossil's been my fave and i'm now looking out for square-shaped watch...never quite managed to find the RIGHT one so far..

I gor for practicality at work...plain or abstract would be my preferred choice...

Yeay, now i can sleep in peace

Recuperate...

2009-12-05T05:40:00.000-08:00

Without going into the details, i'm asking for a favour- please, please pray for me...

Pray that Allah will lead me to the right way...

Pray that Allah will show me some guidance...

Pray that Allah bless me with patience and strength..

Thank you=)

p/s...I'm in the middle of making a good list..coming right up

HERBALIFE FOR EVERYONE

2009-11-21T03:41:00.000-08:00

I have been consuming Herbalife since early 2007 until now. Within the same period of time, i also shared my great experience and helped so many people who are facing problem with their weight and health.

But never once i have the chance to attend formal Herbalife seminar due to work commitment. I only relied on my personal experience and reading through online website. So imagine my excitement to be able to attend Herbalife Opportunity Meeting in KB last friday.

To my suprise, i had my senior(in SSP)'s husband as the organizer. They both consumed Herbalife and benefited through it.

Let me share with you some of the real- life testimonies i witness during the event

1. My senior herself was married for 3 years and went through a lot to get pregnant. She decided to improve her nutrition with Herbalife and alhamdulillah, is now a mother to a 3 year old son. So she continued with Herbalife for post-pregnancy weight loss programe and managed to shed back to her pre-pregnancy shape.

2. Her husband used to have waisline of 36' and now proudly of 31'.

3. Couple of UIA students who suffered from different illnesses-eczema, asthma, migraine, gastritis and shared the common problem of lacking energy/sleepiness in class. They actually took up Herbalife to improve their health and energy level and were very happy with the results.

4. The guest speaker was a mother of 5 children who had been trying very hard to lose weight. She managed to shed off 10kg in 10 weeks and definitely looked much younger than her actual age. She even shared her little experiment with us: stopped consuming Herbalife for 7 months expecting some yo-yo weight but that never happened. Her weight remained the same throughout the Herbalife-free period.

5. A young mother who consumed Herbalife throughout her pregnancy and to date has lost a whooping 20kg.

6. An old man walked up the stage and let us know that his age was 78 years old and Herbalife helped him a lot dealing with osteoarthritis of knee (sakit lutut org tua-tua) and happily ambulating now.

7. A gentleman who was very skinny and underweight used Herbalife to build some muscle and improve on his energy. He went from 50kg to 58kg.

8. Another gentleman who used to weigh more than 100kg managed to shed off his weight and suffered less of gout. Now he looked very built and younger than his age.

9. A few others who suffered from diabetes, hypertension and other chronic illness who experienced great improvement in their health

As for my personal record as Herbalife wellness coach, i helped my sister to shed off her weight from 87kg to 68kg (that's 19kg!) and a gentleman who used to weight 106kg to 86kg ( and i believe has lost more since i last heard from him).

Alhamdulillah, i am very pleased.

I believe there are people surrounding us who suffered from either of above problem so let me help. My simple faith is that no matter who and what we are doing in life, our body need the best NUTRITION to function. I can always personalised your programe based on your health issue and budget.

All it take is the first decision towards longevity!

rindu.

2009-11-14T07:15:00.000-08:00

i missed u very much.

darn.

i missed u very very very much.

but this time, i will not do anything...maybe it's the best for us...

i will keep this deep inside and whenever u pop out in my mind, i will only remember our good time.

miss u, my favourite man.

Time-out

2009-11-14T06:36:00.000-08:00

This is, when i am not seeing patients..

Looking forward to more of this

Rewards

2009-11-09T05:16:00.000-08:00

I LOVE MY LITTLE DRESS (though it's not gonna be in facebook's collection..LOL)

I LOVE ANIS's MAKE-OVER

I LOVE THE GLITTERY GLAMOROUS THEME

I LOVE WALKING DOWN THE MEMORY LANE

I LOVE THE SENTIMENTAL BACKGROUND MUSIC( I hear you people calling out my name when it was Kuch Kuch Hota Hai..thank u very much:p)

I LOVE CATCHING UP WITH MY BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE

I LOVE THE FOOD VARIETY

I'm not gonna do any justice to the event even with thousands of words written here. It was a perfect night although i wish we could've stretched it out till the next morning.. I knew from past experience that with reunion, we will never be able to talk to everyone within that limited time (ok, blame the rojak that kept me glued to the table..) but i am happy that i still managed to sit down with a few people and had little chat. Yes Ecah, i was excited to meet up with you again after alllll theeeeessssseeeeee yyyyeaaarrrssss!

And to some of us, we left Room 920 with some hilarious inside jokes...

So i shall leave you girls with Thank You Notes from our Headgirl...

To all who attended the dinner – you guys rock! Hope you had fun, hope you guys enjoyed the food and door gifts. Thank you for all the laughter, smiles and love. I wished we had all night to talk and laugh. Thank you for being so fabulous and glamorous and glittery. Special shout out to Kak Anie for her awesome bling-bling belt (RM 1.30 per stone), and to Syu and Yatt Ye for… well, you guys know why! Hahaha…To Nazihah, who dropped by at the start of dinner to say ‘hi’ on her way to another commitment just because she knew most of us were going to be there – we are touched :)

To those who can’t come – we dearly miss you. Appreciate the thoughts and support you sent through. Really wish you girls were here. Your pictures on the slideshow (which I mostly copied from your FB, hope that’s okay, heh) was really a hit, especially the wedding and babies’ pictures – everyone went ahhh and ohhh and wow (Ude, semua kagum dengan gambar ko berpakaian askar). Pictures will be sent on a CD to those who attended, and those who are interested to get the door gifts, we will advertise on that soon.

To award winners, Syu the ‘We Can’t Believe It’s You!’ winner; Ya the ‘Most Eligible Babe’; Ana Ono the ‘Hot Mama’ and Kak Anie, the ‘Diva of the Night’, hope you guys enjoy the awards! Syu and Kak Anie, may you guys enjoyed the dinner bags. Ana, happy shopping with the voucher and Ya, hope you have fun at the movie with someone special (there’s a reson why there are two movie tickets there, hahaha). The award ribbons were hand-made with love tau……..

To the lucky draw winners – Erynn, Yatt Ye, Melati, Farina (and almost winner, Ya) and Elly – enjoy your gifts as well.

To all sponsors, who shall remain nameless, of the cookies, the chocolates, the Crabtree & Evelyn set, the thumb drives, the iPod shuffle, and the money – thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you. All, please pray for the health and wealth of our donors: may they find more happiness for the happiness they provided for us, and may they find more ‘rezeki’ for the rezeki that they provided to us that night.To everyone who helped preparing for the night, thank you a bunch for all the help. Much appreciated.

To the superwomen:Ya, Liyana, Peon, Farina, Hana, Tote, Syu, Wan Sue and anyone who helped big and small ~for the fabulous job you guys did, I can’t thank you enough. May God bless you for all the work, time spent, money invested, energy given – the night won’t be a reality without your commitment. It was a pleasure working (more like having fun with you guys though!) with all of you. You girls simply rock!!!Let’s keep in touch, see each other more and here’s to another great reunion five and ten years down the road! (Any takers to organize the 15th and 20th anniversaries reunion? Application starts now!!!!

p/s...nak tunggu kahwen dulu baru pakai balik dress tuh....kahkahkah!

Unload

2009-10-31T08:38:00.000-07:00

Goodness..

I find it a lot easier to read from one blog to another than updating mine... It's either too much to keep as secret or it's all the same old routine...

So here i am, forcing myself to let it out a bit.

I would have been all jumpy and excited for the coming Glitz' Night if not for these two things that'll happen beforehand

Monday: VIVA assessment

Wednesday: CME presentation..

Although this isnt the first time for the past 2 years, but for some reason i find orthopaedic is asking a bit too much of me thus creating unnecessary anxiety. These surgeons intimidate me with this meticulous and very technical way of explaining things. The frustration over being taken for granted shall not be elaborated here.

I do not aim high, i am happy to be (at least a little bit above) average. It's a valid feeling when you're surrounded by negative environment and you just wanna prove urself something.

Only after i'm done with these two, i will be able to

-Find glittery legging and bling bling accesories

-Trim my hair

-Play with make up

Come Thursday quick!

Little happiness

2009-10-21T04:06:00.000-07:00

1. After 7 years, i reunited with my lovely Peah. We spent 6 hours strolling down the mall with what we did best: talking and shopping. Ohh, i so lovee my little dress for the coming SSP9599 dinner.. i'll see u in UK next year insya Allah.

2. Family gathering went well in Ipoh. We crash landing at our aunt's crib and had fun: BBQ and trip to the Lost World of Tambun.. but for the guys, they definitely enjoys Jirami the most...

3. They say love is about giving, so i started with Al-Fatihah after each prayer to the future partner. That's actually a tip given by my good fren and i find it comforting.

4. I'm submitting my name for Beijing's trip in December, insya Allah.

5. There will be another family trip to Bandung in January next year..i secretly wish i will have a good news by then so that i can do massive shopping . ngeh!

I know, it took me a almost a month to came out of this un-planned hiatus. Everytime i sat down with my laptop, i took my own sweet time to blog-hop and stuff so by the time i thought i should be updating this space, i gave up.

But a short entry of happiness is a lot better than endless writing of grumbles, i think=)

Shout Out!

2009-09-29T05:34:00.000-07:00

I think my response to all the comment deserve a special entry

Hafizah: hehehe, i'm still waiting for the drugs..would it be easier with the gas in ur hand? ah yes, i love all my baju raya's...and for the marathon round the hospital, i'll pass:p

Z: hehe, those're the easiest bit from the list...haven't got the chance to oggle on the cuties though...

Farina: dugong session post-reunion sounds like a plan...yeay yeay!!

Ambol: oiits, aku nak bunk in ur room on that night lah kalu camtuh.

Highlights:

1. Open house at Tmn Uda Murni on 10.10.09. Any idea for theme and menu?

2.I'll be in KL on 15th Oct to meet up with Peah..havent decide either to proceed with family excursion to Pangkor or just stay in town till end of the weekend..if i do, need a movie partner cos no shopping for me this time!

Wish

2009-09-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

Salam Aidilfitri to all readers..

Setulus ikhlas memohon maaf atas segala salah dan silap atau terkasar bahasa

Terima kasih atas segalanya..

Azam baru?

Ingin menjadi org yang paling sabar dan sentiasa memaafkan.

Incoherent Part III

2009-09-12T05:03:00.000-07:00

I've lost more than 3kg since Day 1 of puasa.

Everytime i promised myself to reply the MonashClan group email, i never did. One or two has been asking my whereabout rhetorically.They actually played a major role for my happy doses back in those days. I never missed reading the snailmail but when it's time to update about myself, i dont know where to start.Perhaps the experience of being a chronic houseman that demand me to act a litle less than junior MO itself with the same old pay will do. should i also mention the perks of doing less calls due to the policy? It's not influx, genius. It's retention.

missed.

I'm afraid to see Ramadhan comes to the end. All this while, i have been using it as the main strength to fight and the best tool to fill in the silence. Funny how i share the same sentiment with a few others.It's nothing new to realise how Ramadhan has always been a trial period for me, but at the same time i also appreciate my renewed bonding with my Creator. I was told that it's all in the mind and i can always be strong despite any named month.

ok.

It's not that i am not excited to enjoy the full house and wear my 4 pieces of baju raya matched with 3 pairs of kasut raya completed by the new handbag.Yes,i still have my childhood spirit when it comes to that.

whee.

Let's do some wild experiment. Here's my brain on the dissecting table. Doesnt it looked a little bit crowded to you? Here's the scapel.Now i want you to remove the big chunk of what's labeled as memory so that i can have more space for the future wishes junky.

lega.

Picnic at waterfall sounds like a plan now. The last time we had it was a few years back during my summer break. There's some jingling feeling associated with what we called as dugong session...Dont worry, there's no way we would call ourselves duyong for some eye-rolling expression..hehehe

gelak.

Miss Mehran gave me a list of Feel-Good-Moment hence my daily status in FB. Speaking of FB, i still cannot understand why stranger would make an effort to add me up in his/her list. It's not that ur interested to be my fren anyway. Ok, i am biased cos i would absent-mindedly approve any request from female and leave her at peace but as for the other species, i make sure i checked out the profile to confirm he's alien to me and rejected the request. Ok, back to the list. Some are as easy as wearing new clothes/shoes/bag but top in the list is indeed

'lari keliling hospital'.

Incoherent Part II

2009-09-10T08:24:00.000-07:00

I imagine myself in KL. Clad in my casual attire, enjoying breakfast at mamak...driving myself to the shopping mall...lost myself in the crowd....and feel good.

I imagine myself having gala time with my fellow girls at the waterfall..Farina, will the day after reunion be a good timing for our dugong session? unless if i go earlier in October..

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When "bad" things happen to "good" people, it's often because they want to become even better teachers, guides, and helpers to those precious souls who will one day need them to be their rock.
Plus, today's bad is always tomorrow's boon, no matter who you are, no matter what has happened, and no matter how weak the coffee was.
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I have been having mixed conversation in my head lately. It's like two different personality is trying to tell me what should i say and think. That's why you would see me in two different mood in a split second. I tried to let the fairy personality take charge of me but sometimes the evil one managed to abduct my mind.

I hope it's not a losing battle.

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It doesn't matter that the road's been rough, that you now have challenges, or that uncertainties loom on the horizon.

None of these change the fact that for every thought you think today, worlds will come tumbling into existence. For every word you speak, legions will be called into action. And for every step you take, matter will be drawn from the ether.
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After almost 6 months has passed, i realise that i am now at peace with the past. Whatever being 'shouted' to my face no longer bother me. I'm glad i have outgrown that childish episode in my life. I also see no harm for a new start but i dont think it will ever happen, anyway. So, i'll just leave it at that but with a better tone.

That's what forgive and forget really means, isnt it?

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Living the life of your dreams is a lot like sailing.

You pick your destination, hoist up your sail, make minor adjustments while the journey is underway, and let the wind do all the hard work.

In other words, imagine the end result, do what little you can, make minor adjustments while the journey is underway, and let me blow your mind.
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Tallyho!!!

Incoherent

2009-09-07T03:24:00.000-07:00

I find myself writing a lot less in here.

Maybe i find it much easier to keep everything inside than go all expressive in public.

Maybe i'm afraid i would sound emotional when i want people to see me strong and calm.

Maybe i believe that the less i say it out, the less painful it will be...

I find i a lot easier to have conversation in my head or share it with God.

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To fill in my absence, i'd like to usher u girls to my sister's blog .I find myself giggling a lot while reading her musing, perhaps because i could actually relate to most of the situation. I know she hates the fact that people often mistaken her as my elder sister but she sometines does act like one... but most of the time, she'll be the one who takes up my order and endure my nag.

Yes, i am the evil between the three.

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This conversation took place shortly after the father met my partner-in-crime and i at our friend's house. His son is our gay partner in the clan, which simply means incest if we end up marrying each other...

Father: patutla abang takde risau pun pasal nak kahwin...tak rasa nak kahwin.

Son: kenapa?

Father: dok berkawan dengan diorang tuh...perangai macam budak-budak...yang dua orang tuh tak boleh berenti bercakap ke?

Son: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

oh my god...

DUSHHH!!

I dont think we're that childish *denial denial*

ahh, speaking of denial..i actually have a patient back in paediatric ward who was named as

'AHMAD DENIAL"

goodness gracious.lol

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After another round of cleaning the wardrobe, i made the usual pact not to do any clothes' shopping and the dateline this time would be until i finish my internship which will be later in April.

Shortly after the vow, i paid my first visit to the newly opened Parkson and regretted myself to death.

Err, can i take back my words??

*pussy-cat eyes*

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As i have to take my mind off retail therapy, i need an excursion. Sabah is now off the list because i missed the best deal already.

I dont think Kl will be a wise decision because experience tells everything. Besides, nobody should see me doing helicopter stunt in the middle of the shopping mall as i try to control myself from splurging money.

I would love to go to an island but my partner in crime cannot be nowhere near the sea.

I'm having Lumut, Bukit Merah or Janda Baik for my family's excursion next month... Any better option?

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I'll try to stick to one particular topic when i type next time..

Bye.

HERBALIFE -OATS CHALLENGE

2009-08-29T07:35:00.000-07:00

DULU

KINI

I first started with Herbalife in early 2007. Within 3 months of healthier eating habit, i accomplished my targets

- LOSE 7kg

- LOSE 20cm in total

- Size for my tops changed from XL/L to M/S

- Size for my pants shrink for 32 to 28

That's a very big accomplishment for a girl who has TRIED to lose weight since 15 years old..

So here i am ready for another challenge.. Alhamdulillah, the weight has remained almost the same (if not a bit more) and i am of the same size as 2 years ago. The new targets is more of wellness evaluation rather than weight and inches...

These are the figures when i first started in early August

Body fat: 28 (Normal 22-25)

Water content: 52 (Normal 55)

Bone Mass: 2.3 (Normal 2.4)

Basal Metabolic Rate: 1230 (Normal 1300)

Metabolic age: 27

*Pant's size: 28

*Hip: 92cm

*Thigh: 55cm

So i'll see myself in October with these new figure

Body fat: 22

Water content: 55

Bone mass:2.4

Basal Metabolic Rate: >1300

Metabolic age: 18 year old

*Pant's size: 27

*Hip:85cm

*Thigh:45cm

Wish me all the very best!!

Bubble-Q

2009-08-21T09:07:00.000-07:00

I just realised i never put up any picture in this blog unlike the previous one...so i hope this BBQ event will do...hopefully more to come in the future...

Mustard-honey and black pepper

Bracesku sayang...

Tak sabar...

Huh, bile aku bleh makan plak nih??

Keep ur distance, buddy!

Oh, testing one two three!

Good clan

Takpe2, kitorang tak tahu.....;)

Thanks for coming...

Nak amik sume bleh??

Partner in Crime!

Approach..

2009-08-19T08:06:00.000-07:00

Hmm.

Nak cerita ape ye?

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah...itu yang aku cepat2 hiaskan di bibir setiap kali rasa sedih atau resah..sebabnye aku nak ingatkan diri segala nikmat2 lain yang Allah dah berikan padaku sepanjang hidup ini...Alhamdulillah, rasa hati kembali tenang sedikit..paling tidak, aku tahu Allah masih sayang pada aku..

Peah pesan, kadang-kadang Allah tak beri ape yang kita mahu sebab Allah suka mendengar kita meminta padaNya..comel kan? kalau semua benda yang kita nak kita dapat, takut nanti makin jauh dari Allah..

Nak dengar cerita lain?

Tahun 1999, di kala ramai sangat kawan2 yang dapat tawaran further study di matriks or some other private university...i did not get any and had to wait for my SPM result at home..i was devastated and kinda lost because i thought i must've done bad in my SPM. Allah Maha Besar, the result came out beyond my expectation and received numerous good offers after that.

See, Allah always save the best for the last...

Paling penting, aku tak hidup in regret..

Ramadhan hadir tepat pada masanya. insya Allah, aku ada beberapa janji pada Allah untuk bulan yang mulia nih.

Ada Allah, ada family..aku ok.

Strength

2009-08-14T04:01:00.000-07:00

I have less than 30 minutes here..

Rasa unsettled. Something at the back of my head. I have been thinking of it for more than a week, cried once for it became unbearable. I have a few options and i want to do it wisely this time.

My sister praised me for being strong and keep calm. I'm glad i presented myself that way to others. I told her, i would always share happy news but rather keep it to myself the sad ones.

Look, i have been given 4 best months in my life and now i am not sure what is next..i can be all gloomy for things have changed and i may have to move on but i want to be different..

I want to be the one who is grateful for the last 4 month's good memories. I want to be able to reminisce every single events that we shared and still smile in comfort. I want to be able to hold my hope high for something better...

If you see me next time,

I may be a little quiet..I may isolate myself from the crowd...I may be lost in my own thought..

But dont worry. I am here to stride.

Speechless

2009-07-27T15:35:00.000-07:00

Someone was doing her daily chanting in the car....

"Nak kawen dengan orang kaya!"

"....................................................."

"Ko nak kawen dengan sape yatt?"

"Nak kawen dengan orang yang sayang aku"

"Aku dah agak tuh mesti jawapan ko...almost came out from my mouth before ko jawab"

".......................ek?......................."

spontaneous. deep.

Better...

2009-07-24T16:26:00.000-07:00

The time will come when you'll see that pretty much everything was better than you thought. That life was more beautiful, people were kinder, greens were greener, and the water was cleaner. But most of all, you'll see... that you were simply stunning, every day of your life.

Well,

I'm done with my VIVA (oral exam) for paeds...No, i didnt really study for this one as i would've been cos i i was feeling lazy but God helped me in other way. Yes, the topics were common but none of the expected ones but as i had lotsa related pop quiz from my MO prior to that, i would say it went smoothly...Was my MO the angel in disguise then?

I'm done with my oncalls in paeds..9 days of 8-5 shifts is a bless...although the last call was a bit of drama, let's not attract the negativity from it..Now, what shall i do with my free nights?

I'm done with SCN(special care nursery) and being transferred to NICU (neonatal intensive unit). Yes, the workload might be a bit more intense but i've got great people to work with instead of wasting my time delegating task. So the record came down to 745g baby that i have intubated.

The housewarming BBQ was a success...good sporting crowd...supple of food and funny candid moments..it reminded me so much of Melbourne's life. I have to admit that i lost cooking touch but i helped around with cleaning and preparing the material...ngeh! So, the next plan will be picnic by the beach...yeay!

What's next??

Today i' planning to go for a spa...i need some me time.

Tomorrow, i' hoping to catch up with Farina after work in between her Panggilan Pulau and Airport.

And next weekend, I' off to KL for some 'Black Shopping Splurge' and hopefully a few movie sessions...Black in the sense that i have this list of black items that i must get,hahahha...

Life is good. Life is better.

That was scary!

2009-07-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

lTengah2 dalam kereta nak pergi mall,

Yt: yeayeay!! kereta dah bersih..

Ui: *pandang dengan muka curiga* haaa, ko basuh kereta nih mesti ko nak dating..

Yt: huh, amende nyee...*muka bosan*

(dah berapa bulan MyWhite aku tuh tak berbasuh, maka haruslah aku excited bila lihat ia berkilat kembali...betul, takde kena mengena dengan yang hidup mahupun yang mati)

elok je sampai junction, teeeeettt teeetttt bunyi sms

Yt: isk, pakcik nih..macam tau2 je aku nak kuar..sib baik sempat..

Ui: haaaa, betul kan aku kata..wah, terus tukar lane..ahahha

Yt: *dalam hati-shadap la pempuan=p*

Pung piang pung piang, pergi amik dia then tiba2 offer nak belanja makan.

impromptu lagi....dgn aku fool of wardrobe malfunction di kala itu, nasib la labu... aku memang buta warna, colour incoordinate.

Kisah selanjutnya di tempat makan,

borak borak makan makan...terkeluar cerita pasal semalam. oh, geng sekepala rupanya...

alih alih dia senyum kambing pastu melambai seseorang..

wallahwei, that very person we're talking aboutl! none of them plan the co-incident by the look of their faces, i can assure u that...

erk, i guessss....

p/s...aku rasa spooked. psychic.

Breath in , breath out...

2009-07-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

2 weeks of silence?

Should i recap my first real challenge being a doctor -breaking bad news to the family members?

I wish i could share with someone about this inferiority complex i suffered of late. i started to de-value myself and could not find anything worth about myself. Atypical of me but i'm not ashamed to admit.

A little thought- Would i be missed if i die?

Headache and cough are little nuisance to the already hectic life.

I missed having an ample time to sit down and think before typing.

I want to scream out loud!

I need a hug.

Fingers off.

Ya Allah, ampunkan segala dosaku.

LIFE CHANGING MISSION..

2009-06-27T07:31:00.000-07:00

Now it’s time to share with you people the business opportunity I was talking about some time ago before i went fo umrah.
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After I successfully introduce HERBALIFE to the people around me, I look out for another side income that not only will give me financial freedom but also will change my life.

Then I was introduced to the company by a colleague. At first I was nonchalant but after listening to its company, product and marketing plan, I knew it’s one in a lifetime chance.

Being a businesswoman, I’ve always consider these 3 component before making my first step.

COMPANY

# The company has established itself within 17 years and counting
# Listed in the Main Board of KLSE
#Accredited by Kementerian Perdagangan Dalam Negeri (KPDN)
#Accredited by MARA for producing MALAY millionaires every year.
#Benefits not only CASH MONEY but also DESIGNER WATCH, CAR ALLOWANCE and FREE OVERSEA TRIP (all in my wish list…)

PRODUCT
# Accredited as SUPERBRAND
# 1 year warranty for BIO-AURA
#Nano technology that allows water to detoxify our body efficiently
# The alkaline water that will neutralise acidic environment in our body ( and the closest pH to our holy Zamzam..)
# Excellent review through television and magazines (that I don’t have to do the talking much..)

MARKETING PLAN (the most CONTRIBUTING FACTOR for my decision to join)
#Very simple and easy to follow
# The investment in only once in a lifetime ( not yearly or even monthly)
# Only 3 STEPS for a stable and PASSIVE income
# Only 10 SETS and 4 BUSINESS PARTNER in a lifetime to be successful
# Hundreds of MALAYS have become millionaires following the system

When I first attend the weekly get-together aka training, I had an eye-opening experience. I met a lot of successful people who have climbed up the ladder and enjoy a new life. I’m not talking about ex-CEO or professionals here but humble clerk /pembantu am rendah, attendant hospital and staff nurse. They earn a lot more than I do being a government servant and enjoy better life. I see determination and strong will in their face, deep inside I feel ‘challenged’ ( in a good way).

I have a lot of dreams- for myself, beloved family and to contribute to the community. I cannot fulfill my these dreams with my job alone. Furthermore, Rasulullah once said that 9 out of 10 of rezeki is from business. Last but not least, seeing many people (and most importantly MALAYS) as the living proof of this business..I decided to make it as my choice of life. The first one was receiving my first month bonus worth 4K so I‘m looking forward for more.

Here I am, inviting you to be part of this life changing experience. Do contact me if u wanna know more. We’ll achieve our DREAMS together..

~A flower doesn't turn toward the sun because it needs to, but because it wants to, and so the process is effortless and joyful. ~

Cricket moments...

2009-06-21T05:52:00.000-07:00

Diam lebih baik dari berkata-kata

When you have nothing good to say, just keep quiet

That's what i believe now. Learning in hard way, words can be very hurtful. I choose to go on silent instead of repeating myself. After all, it's just me being emotional.

I choose to ~~block~~ stay in control with my thoughts and focus on other things in life instead. I want to keep on believing and avoid sour feeling that will stop it from coming.

Ok then. Bye

Quest...

2009-06-20T07:50:00.000-07:00

Being a ~~chronic~~ HO in public hospital allows me a limited time for other things in life but that's not gonna be the topic of discussion here..

Instead, i have this list of events that i am looking forward or planning to do in between on calls and running around the ward...

1. Resume exercise

I have two options of going for a brisk walk at the park or taking up tae-box again so i choose the latter as it can be done at my own convenience. For a start, i brought the gymball to the house and tomorrow will search for the tae-box dvd among the stacks. Actually, i've been doing tae-box way back in Melbourne and i think it's time to feel the adrenaline rush again. See, my working environment (and location) may not permit me to sign up for gym membership but i need my endorphin daily doses to keep me happy (and glowing).

2. Round trip to Ipoh

I have been promising my beloved auntie a visit so it will be next month, insya Allah. hopefully, it will also include my younger sister and my mum. Her house has always been my favourite 'rest-house' with an almost complete collection of DVD's and easy access to good food. Also looking forward to some serious and personal talk with one of my favourite cousin.

3. Family day at greenery

My father owns an orchard completed with kolam ikan so next weekend, my paternal side will be organising our family day there with almost 9 families get together. I will be post call and most probably doze off under the hut, wake up in time for lunch..heheh..that's the beauty of having big family with aunties ready to pamper me off..

4. Massive shopping spree

U read me right there. I'm planning to do some massive shopping spree. Retail therapy will never fail to make a girl happy, that's a known fact. I missed doing laps of round at the shopping malls with my girls. Hopefully i can find shopping partners for this mission.

Happy Feeling..stay with me!

Ngeee..

2009-06-20T04:16:00.000-07:00

I have a confession to make..

Ready?

It's time to erase the 'No-Shopping-Unless-I'm-Travelling-Policy' out of my resolution for this year..hahahhahah

That's because i have a long list of things to buy and i miss doing shopping spree..the latest proof was yesterday when i bought 4 set of baju kurung and a beach dress while accompanying Farina's mother.impromptu.

Here's my list for this month alone
1. TV 24' inch for our living room.
~~2. Double bed for my room~~
3. Aircond for my room
4. Treat mum a handphone for her birthday.
5. Bedside table x 2
6. Railing for my working attire
7. 'Best of Life' board

and next month, i'm planning to top up my working pants, pattern scarf and baju kurung plus a practical black handbag. So the next best thing to do is to spring-clean my wardrobes (again?) because it's already overflowing..

Money, money...come to me!!

3 Days in Heaven...

2009-06-13T03:49:00.000-07:00

Day 1

I woke up early for no reason. While waiting for my nephews to wake up, i found myself reading through the autograph book dated back in 1999- the book we created for our friends before leaving SSP.. i had a long story with this book, actually waited for almost 10 years since i left school to get hold of it back..but the patience paid off..

As i flipped through the pages, i smiled, laughed out loud and at times couldnt help myself from sighing in deep regret. it truly touched me to see how much effort these people put up into the pages and how i was remembered as back then.it was funny how some of us(ehem, highlight to the headgirl!) could actually dreamhigh..

Deep inside, i could not ignore my regret for not being able to keep some of them close through the years.. we drifted apart, no thanks to the time and distance. hopefully the coming 10th years anniversary will give me a chance to fix at least some, if not all.

So i spent the rest of the day doing some shopping spree at The Curve-Ikea-Ikano.. i must say i was not even half done with my shopping despite the long 4 hours but there'll always be next time... the No-Shopping-Unless-I'm-Travelling policy is still valid i think, or at least i'd like to believe so.. I've listed few items for my brother to bring home from Ikea too..

I called it a day at 9pm. ngeee..

Day 2

She's my confidante, i promised myself to make it to her wedding and i'm glad i did. I went to Port Dickson with Ms. Z and Aneesa on a longgggggggggggg journey.. was it the Suarasa or Hani-Izhar's wedding that created the massive traffic, we wonder ;) It's amazing to realise that i actually waited for more than 6 years to meet both girls (and Dyian actually, as we bump into her at Alamanda) again. We hugged each other, congratulated on the good news and shared lotsa stories on our way to the reception. We thought we got lost on the highway (Along, i would've called you if i have ur number to ask the direction...hehehe) but he assured me that we're not through the phone. As agreed, the map was meant for Serembanites o.n.l.y;)

Hani-Izhar looks gorgeous alongside Adzreil but pardon me for not bringing my camera along...we had a heartful lunch by the beach (oh yes, u read me right!) and a familiar face hi-ed us in excitement..it was Cikgu Zarina, our dearest teacher back in IB..

Day 3

I made a plan with Cik Tun to visit Norma and her new little munchkin...the Zara Jr. was gorgeous!! also met up with Effie there, as pretty as she always been.

By noon, i'm home again to spend time with my dearest nephews before i left for hometown...

Will be back in August!!

Kisah lepak...

2009-06-09T07:56:00.000-07:00

Both were heading to the deer cage at the park...

Aku: hmmm, ape beza ek rusa dengan seladang??

Dia: *turn around with a bewildered look* makcik! seladang tuh macam lembu...hahahha

Aku: *erk* ohhhh ek??

Dia: hahaha, i tau lah u bukan doktor haiwan=p

Aku: *rolled eyes*

*someone got a good punch afterwards*

Sleepyhead..

2009-06-09T07:52:00.000-07:00

It's past 11pm and i'm post-call.

I wished there's more time to finish up my draft for the last weekend activity and to come up with more entries. Promise, i'll try better next time..

Gudnite!

and all the very best to you..

Stories...

2009-05-28T05:37:00.000-07:00

1.One day i received a call asking when i'm going to empty the quarters. Apparently they've decided to shorten the stay of houseman from 2 years to a year only in that apartment. oh great! *rolled eyes*

So the house hunting began. It's been 6 years since i did it with my girls back in Melbourne and lack of virtual information didnt help the process itself.

Hugs to my mum, we managed to find a decent semi-D house with 4 bedroom. I love the neighbourhood with an easy access to almost everywhere. This time i decided to go easy on furniture hunting and settled down with a simple yet spacious master bedroom. I need to find a good quality of matress and a practical study table then i'll be done.

Psttt, there's a tiny chance that i'll start back cooking. shall we wait and see?

2. Day in and day out in paeds ward practially left us in exhaustion and a short break would be nice. Then came the idea of going for picnic this saturday. Unfortunately, Brahim have to leave for KL that makes us incomplete. Fret not, we extended the invitation to other colleagues and so far the response were just great. I'm so gonna bring my favourite picnic hat and book to enjoy the day. I so cant waittt!

3. I've booked a flight from 4th to 7th june to be in KL. The main reasons were to attend my beloved angel, haniizhar's wedding and to meet my Yusuf Rayyan for the first time. But here's things to consider

- Hani's wedding will be in Seremban and takes place on saturday then the hotel reception on sunday. i wish i could attend both as it's been 6 years since i last saw her. Attending her house's ceremony means better chance to meet her up close and chatted for a while but i also wish to attend the other reception...if i want to do so, i need to find lodging cos there's no way i am making twice trip to seremban. my SIL will definitely not be happy,hehhe... my initial plan was to book a hotel with Zila and enjoy a quick break just the two of us..but i have to find alternative just in case.

If i have to choose between the two wedding, which one should i go? i have a feel that home reception would be a better chance for a long lost fren...

If only he's coming back to KL/Seremban also, things would be easier....

- I wish to go to IKEA for some cute things...

4. Anis, the name is not Ali. lol! insya Allah when the right time comes, i'll share the story with all of u girls here....as for now, there're two jebons reading this space that will throw a fit if i go into details about our progress....

Tomorrow, i'm going for a brisk walk at the park..

Quickie...

2009-05-24T08:34:00.000-07:00

Sorry girls,

i need some time to update on

-my new (rented) house

-picnic plan this coming saturday

-going to kl from 4th to 7th june for hani-izhar's wedding and some family time

-life in ward 4 of paediatric unit

that's all i guess..

Don't ask me question..

2009-05-19T08:23:00.000-07:00

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
bila si lurus bertemu si loyar buruk...

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
1. Thoughtful in subtle way..
2. Isk, his cheekiness drives me confused *rolled eyes*
3. Family-man
4. Good command in English with great knowledge about almost everything
5. Comfort to the eyes..

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you?
when he sing to me one of Anuar Zain's

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you?
=)

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..
thank Allah for the greatest gift

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will..
smile and walk away

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on
his cheekiness...*rolled eyes*

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...
cheating on me

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
eh?

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
a person worth to keep at heart..

ok, dont worry. i still keep the option open..hahahaha

Feeling blessed...

2009-05-12T05:03:00.000-07:00

When HE took away a person, little did i know that HE actually wants to replace with a better one....

Choose to keep things low.

Pls pray for what's best..

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku minta petunjuk yang baik dari-Mu dengan ilmu-Mu, aku minta kekuatan dari-Mu dengan kekuatan-Mu. Aku meminta dari-Mu dari kelebihan-Mu yang banyak, maka sesungguhnya Engkau berkuasa, aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau mengetahui dan Engkaulah yang paling mengetahui perkara-perkara ghaib.

Ya Allah, jika Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini baik untukku pada agamaku, duniaku dan kesudahan urusanku buat masa kini dan masa akan datang, maka tentukannya untukku dan permudahkannya kepadaku. Jika Kamu mengetahui bahawa perkara ini tidak baik untukku pada agamaku dan duniaku dan kesudahan urusanku buat masa kini dan masa akan datang maka elakkanya dariku dan elakkan diriku daripadanya, tentukan kebaikan untukku di mana sahaja aku berada sesungguhnya Engkau berkuasa di atas segala sesuatu.

Amin.

Chin Up and Stride Forward

2009-05-10T02:45:00.000-07:00

I once replied to my dearest Monash's sister

"Big hugs for u. I knew bout the UM offer so congrats! Mmg in our job selalu kena marah, rasa unappreciated tp keep in mind that we work kerana Allah and not for others. That way rasa much comforted. We've always try out best..'

She texted me the usual dilemma and infamous challenge faced by junior doctor, particularly in this system-the humiliation, the dejection, the frustration and what's not. This issue were dealt differently by us; some choose to whine and others keep it rotting inside.

If you're saying i'm being idealist; well, sorry but that's how i choose to face it, or rather embrace the situation. It's too late to regret our choice to pursue this profession and if i may humbly remind that we're actually given the opportunity by Allah to do the most noble job of all. If that's not enough, this job actually brings us closer and closer to our Creator.

How many times we recite Bismillah or Selawat before poking the patient's vein or doing resuscitation?

This journey was never an easy one for me either. Some may have seen my tears streaming down while doing ward job and at nights, some read my thought of writing a resignation letter in the previous space. The only survival kit i have were solat hajat each time before on call because i was so scared i might faced difficult nights and finding little happiness every day. Successful venepuncture on difficult vein could easily be the source of satisfaction during that period.

Slowly i learned and found new joy and enthusiasm in this job.

Being average, my daily aim is to be able to perform my best and come home with no regrets. I know i may not be able to remember everything under the sun and master all the skills but as long as i tried, i will leave the hospital with a smile.

'Worry is like a working chair, it will give your work but will not bring anywhere' - SSP's t shirt.

Be grateful that we have HIM to submit ourselves at the end of the day. Be grateful that we have HIM to turn to when everyone else could only give us sympathy look. Be grateful that we only HIS evaluation matters and not others. Be very grateful that we have HIM in our life.

Hugs to all the survivors!

Dua Pertemuan...

2009-05-07T09:10:00.000-07:00

1.One of our days in Mecca, my mum asked whether i'd like to tag along to her friend's acquaintance so i simply said yes despite my common cold. I almost regretted the decision due to the long waiting under the blazing sun until i met the person himself at his house.

Being (Malay) Malaysian millionaire over there, he inspired us in so many ways but most of all

-The key to control the disease is by having no anger and always take things easy. As simple as stress makes your sugar level go haywire, not to mention the blood pressure to shoot up. Keep calm and have no worries.

-When we see other people's fortune, recite Masya Allah and when it comes to our turn, say Alhamdulillah.

-If other (rich) people climb up the mountain in a day, we will climb up the mountain in a month.. We will eventually reach there, it's just a matter of time.

For some, it may be a known facts but let's see how much practise we actually put in it?

2. I've always known that i have relatives who resided in Mecca for a very long time so when it's time to pay them a visit with my family, comes the mixed feeling. anxious-cum-excited. I was worried that it will be a deafening meeting as nobody will understand each other's language and i wonder so many things about them.

I thought wrong. They were all well-versed in Kelantanese, not to mention Arabic despite only paying short visit to Malaysia every now and then. They were warm and welcoming, making me felt like home ( I even took a nap on the bed....ops!). They wore kebaya under their jubah and not much different from us. It was a great experience to know that i have family over there and could not wait to meet them again in the next ziarah.

Two Holy Mosques

2009-05-05T07:37:00.000-07:00

1. Talbiah tetamu Allah

HambaMu telah datang menyambut panggilanMu, Ya Tuhan, hambaMu datang menyambut panggilanMu. Sesungguhnya segala puji-pujian dan nikmat dan kerajaan adalah kepunyaanMu dan tidak ada sekutu bagiMu.

2. Alhamdulillah

Pengalaman pertama menjadi tetamu Allah di Tanah Haram sangat bermakna dan indah. For me to write the experience and feelings over there would be difficult, almost private.

3. Doa perpisahan

Selamat tinggal wahai Rasulullah. Berpisahlah kita wahai Nabi Allah. Amanlah dikau wahai kekasih Allah. Semoga Allah tidak menjadikan pertemuan kita ini sebagai hari terakhir denganmu untuk menziarahimu ataupun berada di sisimu. Kecuali Allah mengurniakan kebajikan sihat dan afiat serta selamat jika umur panjang, insya Allah aku akan datang menziarahimu semula. Tapi jika aku mati dulu, maka aku tinggalkan di sampingmu ikrar sumpah setiaku dari hari ini hinggalah ke hari kiamat, iaitu pengakuanku yang bersungguh sungguh, ,bahawa tiada Tuhan lain yang disembah dengan sebenar benarnya kecuali Allah Tuhan yang Maha Esa, tidak ada sekutu bagiNya dan aku bersaksi dengan sesungguhnya bahawa Nabi Muhammad adalah hamba dan pesuruhNya. Maha Suci Tuhanmu, Tuhan yang mempunyai kemuliaan dari segala yang mereka sifatkan. Salam sejahtera ke atas para Rasul. Segala puji untuk Allah, Tuhan yang mentadbirkan seluruh alam ini.

Sayu.

I'll be gone...

2009-04-17T06:54:00.000-07:00

This shall be my last entry before i'm off for umrah this 21st April til 5th May. The most awaited 2 week's of break after all that happened.

I'll remember each and everyone of you there and pray for all the best things in your life, be it marriage; health; career and little-junior-in-the-making.

Hopefully i will be back refreshed, more in touch with my true-self and find solace i've been searching for.

Deep inside, i also believe that my last wishlist for May will also come true..

I seek forgiveness for all my wrongdoings and please pray for my safe journey..

-Love and Hugs-

Reward

2009-04-16T20:22:00.000-07:00

Acer One

This, i reward myself for passing through Obs & Gynae..loving it!

Finding happiness

2009-04-08T08:55:00.001-07:00

Cantik tak??

cantik kannnn...

Bounce back!

2009-04-03T18:32:00.000-07:00

Aku rasa terhina tapi takpe,

Allah ade and doa itu senjata..

One day is enough for me to swallow the words and shoved everything behind.

I'm bouncing back recounting my blessing and looking forward for many many more happiness

* Tomorrow will be a new day in paediatric. I'm glad that the 6 of us will be in the same department which means merrier lunch hour, more outings and bowling trips plus late night supper. I'm glad that there will be new things to learn and a more laid back environment awaiting.

*My umrah trip will be from 21st April till 5th May with a day break before i start my job again. Alhamdulillah, this was my last year's wish and Allah has made it easy for me to apply for the leave and insya Allah it'll be a new start for me. It's time to cleanse myself and bring myself closer to The Creator and insya Allah will become my annual trip from then on.

*I'm determined to achieve my goal within 3 months after i set my foot into the new business and earn myself a free oversea trip at the end of this year. Alhamdulillah, my HERBALIFE is giving me good money but i just can't resist good opportunity..

That's enough for a start..

But first thing first, i need a new layout..

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2009-04-02T23:35:00.000-07:00

5 months of staying away.

1 month of starting new.

and the truth finally prevailed.

i can learn to be your fren but lying through your teeth is the gravest mistake.

i wish our path will never ever cross again.

what goes around, comes around.

what goes around, comes around.

New..

2009-04-01T17:04:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulilah i passed my viva. was so relieved that a year of internship is over,another year to go. next will be in paeds. the clan reunited!

I made a person offended last nite but i think i deserve to know.

Im goin to kl and would love to watch Talentime..

I wanna change this layout to include my wishlist cos many of them came true;)

Goodness gracious!

2009-03-28T07:00:00.000-07:00

1. To those who are interested with SCORE A for their siblings/cousins/nephews/nieces, let me know..i'm more than happy to help and spread this good effort..

2. My VIVA for O&G will be tomorow. i have butterflies in my stomach whenever i thought of it. For the past 2 days, i have been living in denial and chose to ignore the books. pls pray for me...i really need to pass this assessment and move on to paeds..takutnye=(

3. I'm going to Kedah tomorrow night to visit my Aqil and Zahra...mum said Zahra is just like me when i was small..ngehngehngeh!!

4. I'm going to KL this coming Thursday night and spend two days with my Syahman, Umar and Ibrahim...

5. Yes yes!! i won the bowling games last night...i even beat the super-power Am (thank goodness, he's not gonna find this blog)...lalalala..and Umie's not reading this also, otherwise she's sooo gonna strangle me for bragging this out =p

Saya takuttt nak VIVA esokkk..huhuhuhuh

SCORE A!!

2009-03-27T03:43:00.000-07:00

5 Reasons Why I Register My Nephews for SCORE A

1. Output Learning

During schoolyears, i've always noticed that my frens who excel in studies were the ones who practise answering questions instead of getting bogged down trying to read and memorise the whole things..and that's the difference between output vs input learning..

Eventually in the exam, it's our output learning ability that will be tested, how we apply all the theories and facts to get the rights answer and that's what SCORE A is all about.. there were more than 300,000 questions for the kids to practise and learn comprising all syllabus for UPSR and PMR (soon it will be SPM)..

2. EducationSystem

This portal is closely in line with the school curriculum set by the Ministry of Education. It has Real Time Update which means everytime Ministry of Education changes its curriculum, the portal will update itself..

The person behind SCORE A is an ex-principal of Sekolah Alam Shah..

SCORE A is the one that helps Sek Men Hulu Selangor to beats the rest of elite schools in PMR for 6 consecutive years ...

3. Past Year Exams

Remember during our last month before exams, our teachers would pass us all the past year exams or for those who have money would buy books from Cerdik's Publication to practise past year questions...

Now my nephew have access to 17 years of past year questions (1993-2008) in full formats for all subjects and he can practise doing them using "Countdown Timer"...once the time's up, the system will submit the paper automatically..

4. Report Cards/SMS to the parents

Let me ask you one question, how many times parents get to see their children's report card in a year? at most i bet only 2-4 times in a year..

Thanks to SCORE A, busy parents gets to monitor their children..
For example..my nephew stayed with us in Kelantan and his parents were both in KL but no worries, his father would get his results everytime he practised in SCORE A...

I for myself is very2 busy with job and other stuffs but with SCORE A, i was able to go home during the weekend, browse through his portal and discuss with him all the wrong answer...just like a mini tuition but in a very interactive ways..

5. Personal Development

That's just obvious..

SCORE A brings the parents closer to the kids..
SCORE A helps to boost the kids' confidence level and encourage them to improve themselves
SCORE A trains the kids in Information and Communication Techology (ICT) at early age

Deep inside, i wish i had SCORE A during my schoolyears!

kembali

2009-03-18T06:35:00.000-07:00

1. laptop saya rosak.terpaksa menggunakan htc touch untuk update blog. antara white macbook atau pinky acer yang kecil molek, apekah vote anda?

2. VIVA saya pada selasa depan. doakan saya berjaya supaya saya dapat menikmati cuti seminggu dengan tenang dan gembira. bercuti di KL dan kedah mungkin.

3. nak tahu kisah mimpi saya tentang seseorang? ia rupanya petanda... dua hari kemudian, dikejutkan dgn satu sms daripada yang dimimpikan. tergamam melihat number tertera, number yang saya dah buang jauh2 selama 5 bulan. kenapa dan untuk apa saya dijejak, saya kurang pasti. tapi saya rasa saya tegar untuk melalui episode ini. saya juga sudah penat melarikan diri. mungkin ini yang terbaik.

4. insyaAllah cuti umrah saya diluluskan. siapa mahu namanya diseru bersama2 di Jabal Rahmah nanti? manusia perlu berusaha kan?

5. sekian untuk kali ini.

Tag suka suki

2009-02-21T05:36:00.000-08:00

1. I am currently wearing braces for almost 3 months, hoping to have it off by Eid. The colour goes like this -pink-yellow-purple...what's next?

2. I went to all girls' school for 5 years, thus i tend to treat my male frens like my own siblings...kira macam sumbang mahram kalu nak berfeeling2

3. My favourite number must've been 6...six wonderful girlfrens back in Monash and now, 4 girls and 2 guys in my clique.

4. I'm looking forward to stay in a contemporary apartment...i want it to be 'less is more'

5. My first car is white and my last car will be RED!

6. I dont do well with elder generation. saya tak pandai nak bermanis muka berbudi bahasa dengan mereka..saya rasa kekok (dan juga takut kalau2 ada yang berkenan nak buat menantu..ok, ramai2 ROTFL!!)

7. I'm known as 'primadona' when i was small cos i used to pretend crying and all only to get things my way...and i tell u, it did most of the time.

8. Off all my memories back in melbourne, i missed our road trips and shopping spree most!!

9. I can go to a shopping mall and come back empty-handed OR going crazy with all the sales. I'm like that

10. Saya berangan nak kawen tahun nih....hahahahhahhah!!

11. My brother said i have too many bestfrens..

12. Ppl always question my place of origin when they hear me speaking..i'm a proud kelantanese, with or without the accent:p

13. My one and only love experience: i let it go and stay away from him after i realised i failed to stay fren without deeper feeling attached (and i'm tired of waiting)...hahahha, maafkan saya kerana pathetic.

14. I love to organise simple special event (mostly makan2) when the whole family's around..and our fave games are scrabble or monopoly...the kids in us;)

15. I love pasta so much, i could live on iit for weeks..

16. I promised myself not to do any shopping this year, unless when i'm travelling...

17. My fave book so far is 'The Last Lecture'

18. I have at least 10 books remained unopened on the shelves...maybe i'll read them when i'm done with O&G

19. I was on the verge of quitting after a month of work and here i am reaching a year of being HO, loving my job and couldn't think of doing anything else.

20. I enjoyed PGL musical theatre soooooo much... especially the dance

21. I loved doing gratitude list when i'm feeling down

22. I M.U.S.T catch up on OTH series!

23. I'm a Herbalife loyal fan-from the shakes to herbal aloe shampoo.

24. I am transparent, emotion-wise..

25. SIAP!

Tag berlima

2009-02-21T03:27:00.001-08:00

5 Characteristics of your dream guy/girl (eh tak aci, korang dah tau tiga:p)
1) Sayang saya kerana Allah
2) Membimbing saya ke jalan Allah
3) Boleh menenangkan saya ketika gusar
4) Yakin pada diri (saya penat dengan lelaki yg merendah diri tak tentu hala)
5) Terima saya seadanya

5 Characteristics that you have never like in a guy/girl
1) Tak menjaga solat
2) Shallow
3) Perasan (ahahah!)
4) No manners (termasukla berdiam diri bila tak dapat penuhi janji...)
5) Liar liar

5 feelings that you have when you're out with the one you admire
1) segannya!
2) total happiness
3) senyap2 berdoa agar bertemu jodoh dgn lelaki sepertinya (hahahaha, remember the charming-AND-married doctor i wrote about?)
4) rasa ingin terus bergelak ketawa apa adanya
5) malu! ( cos i tend to be spontaneous and clumsy when i'm nervous..)

5 places that you want to travel with your loved one
1) Mekah
2) Europe (romantika d'amor)
3) Indonesia (kerana saya mahu shopping dan ada org utk tolong ~~bayarkan~~angkat barang).
4) Sabah (orang kata pantai dan pulau di sana cantik2?)
5) ke alam mimpi? (lalalala...)

5 special things that you would give to your loved one
1) Myself
2) My love
3) My life
4) My soul
5) Our kids. :-)
*sorry Farina, aku tinggalkan aja jawapan kamu disini kerna tak banyak berbeza

5 songs that you will sing to your partner
1) Lucky -Jason Mraz
2) Ayat-ayat cinta-Rossa
3) Aku punya kamu -Faizal Tahir
4) Angel on my shoulder-Gareth Gates
5) Lagu rindu-Kerispatih

5 friends that you want to tag
1) Peah
2) Hanin
3) Kak Nazuha
4) Syu-hi
5) Ecah

Random tag

2009-02-21T03:23:00.001-08:00

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
The first 4 letters were named after my mum and the last 4 letters were named after combination of my mum and dad's...so yes, my original name is the remaining 3 letters..

so does my other 2 sisters...

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRY?
Last 2 days. I have been tearful lately.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Only when i'm not in rush and it's neat...

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAL?
Nasi ayam or mee goreng di gerai belakang hospital...our new port for lunch break.

Tapi saya sgt2 rindu nakk makan pasta yang sedapp...

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Not yet (wah, optimis!)

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Of course...i'm not that biatch ok! heheh..

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Only when i can't tolerate the ignorance

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
yes

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
nak nak nak!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
I dont do cereal for soooo long...otherwise would've been crunchy cornflakes (ratah pun sodapp!)

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
tak, malas.. eh silap, saya tak pandai ikat tali kasut jadi kasut saya tak bertali..

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
sundae (aci tak?)

13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
The eyes

14. RED OR PINK?
both

15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Inability to epxress myself when i'm feeling down..reti nangis je:p

16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
A person who used to be my comfort zone

17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
yeah, why not

18. WHAT COLOUR OF PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Erk, i'm at home so not wearing either of those...berkaftan bagai

19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
'When i grow up'- Pussycat dolls.. my ringtones lah:p

20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
White

21. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
Yummylicious food? hahaha

22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
my sister

23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
one of my darling angels...mestilah!

24. FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Basketball

25. HAIR COLOUR?
Black

26. EYE COLOUR
dark brown.

27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nope. Alhamdulillah, mata masih sihat

28 FAVOURITE FOOD?
my mom's cooking

29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
happy ending

30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
PGL musical teater (sorrylah, dah lama tak tgk movie so ingat yang nih je:p)

31. WHAT COLOUR OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
brown

32. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Spring boleh?

33. HUGS OR KISSES?
Kedua-duanya...saya mmg tamak

34. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
Cendol atau ABC!!

35. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Syu-Hi

36. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Hani-izhar

37.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Obstetric life support (haaaa, amik ko!hahaha)

38. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
I dont use mouse.

39. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
semalam saya on-call, terima kasih

40. FAVOURITE SOUND(S)?
silence

41. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
The Beatles

42. WHERE IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Australia

43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
eating..yes lah!

44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Kelantan

45. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Kakcik! Kak Nazuha! Hanin! Peah!Syu-Hi!Hani-izhar

Little Zahra

2009-02-11T07:52:00.000-08:00

Mum and sister said she's the baby version of me...especially tang hidung!

Awwwww!!

Menulis...

2009-02-11T04:28:00.000-08:00

Kembali lagi, eheh.

Ucapan terima kasih kepada

Peon!! aku lupa nak cakap yang aku terharu tengok pose kita dalam kelas Kak Antha dalam ur wedding montage the other day....aaawwwwww!! sooo thoughtful of u tau;) eventhough muka kembang semangkuk aku (itu dulu...ops, vain!) telah memenuhi half of the screen..hehehe

Tapi yang lebih bermakna ialah ENTRY INI...*love love* you are the best!

Farina!! aku excited ko call time keje only to share with me this shocking gossip regarding Saujana (mata memandang..) *eh tak bley nak link the blog entry lah* gile kan??!

~~Gay partners~~ Teman-teman yang berjaya membuatkan aku gelak dan terhibur...

contoh?

*Sorry kalu sms nih rasa tak kelakar, kisahnya HOD yang melawak suruh kitorang mintak petunjuk samada betul2 nak jadi doktor ke tak*

Myself: Oklah geng, malam nih aku nak istikharah..kalu esok aku xde kat hosp kiranya aku tgh tlg kak nab bungkus nasi lemak tau...

Si Bengong: wehh, aku rasa baik ko buat solat hajat skali..mintak mudahkan jodoh ko :p

Myself: arghh nape ko jahat sangat! fuh aku kawen dgn kawan atau famili ko..

Si Bengong: Aminn..jgn kawen dgn aku dahla..hahahah

Myself: hahaha! mana boleh...sumbang mahram

jangan risau, dia dah kawen..sebab tuh dia bengong! Oh lagi satu kenyataaan keji....

'Betul yati, aku dah carik sijil ko tadi...in fact aku cari yg ko dulu sebab mesti bersinar2 macam gigi ko...hehehe'

*cringe cringe cringe*

Sekejap

2009-02-10T06:57:00.000-08:00

*Yawn*

Oh, tak sempat lagi nak update.

Alhamdulillah, kesedihan dah hilang.

Ada ucapan terima kasih nak diucapkan.

Ada tags nak dibuat.

Tapi,

Ada kemengantukan yang nak didahulukan*grin*

Selamat malam semua.